The days you spent were never a waste #ToYouWhoAreAfraidOfSeptember1st
When I was a university student, I didn't like the start of summer vacation in the first place. As lectures and exams ended, I felt like nothing was progressing during the summer break.
And I didn't like the end of summer vacation either. Classes would start again, even though there were no particular homework assignments or projects.
What was I able to do during summer vacation? What results did I produce?
I would start thinking things like that.
Since I had a two-hour commute, it was hard to hang out with friends. I wondered if my friends were working part-time jobs or spending time with their boyfriends. I wasn't particularly jealous. I wasn't, but for some reason, I felt anxious.
Even with a two-hour commute, I found my university classes interesting and enjoyed my activities as a public relations committee member.
The more I thought that way, the more I feared long vacations. The more I thought about my friends when the break ended, the more I feared being thought of as 'a shallow person who can only earn university credits'.
What did I do again?
Oh, was I up until 4 a.m. struggling with a game I bought?
How will that be useful in the future?
Haven't I just spent my time in vain?
That's how it started to feel.
I still feel that way sometimes now that I'm a working adult. Like, I couldn't lose weight during Golden Week, Obon, or the New Year holidays, how frustrating! My vocabulary suddenly disappeared, didn't it? (lol)
Looking back at myself as a university student now, I want to say to her, 'Wasn't that fine?'
Waking up before 6 a.m. and taking a crowded train to university.
Even if I went straight home after classes ended at 4 p.m., it would be past 6 p.m. by the time I got home.
If you keep that up five days a week, you're going to be pretty exhausted, right?
You should just rest to your heart's content during summer vacation.
In the midst of that, isn't it amazing stamina to find yourself immersed in games all night?
Did you know that you can't even sleep for a long time if you don't have the stamina?
Doesn't that mean you're fully enjoying your summer vacation?
The days you spent having fun and the days you spent sleeping to conserve energy were never a waste. So you should be proud of yourself even after summer vacation ends.
I spend my days hoping I could say things like that.
Thank you for this wonderful project.
Perhaps because I've been reflecting on things since I started using note, my 'fear of long vacations' disease is starting to heal.
It might be a message to myself, who for some reason feels frustrated if I can't spend my time off well.
You should just rest to your heart's content during your time off.
I thought to myself that it was a good thing to say.