want to

The foundation of coaching is to shift one's way of living from 'have to' to 'want to'.

It is said that living by 'I want to' opens up new paths.

It is also the coach's role to embody 'want to' themselves.

Even before learning coaching theory, I had been living my days with an awareness of 'want to', but recently I have realized that my body has become even more incapable of doing things I don't want to do.

My body now shows a rejection response to things I don't want to do, and I have started to feel unwell...

My body is so honest and so clear that I find myself thinking, as if it were someone else's business, 'Bravo!'

I have never been good at saying no, and I have always said yes even to things I didn't want to take on.
I lived by suppressing my true feelings, thinking that even if I didn't want to do it, it might turn out well in the end, but the price I paid was high.
It was common for my body to become unable to move for a while.
Even now, my body sometimes stops moving, as if it were in energy-saving mode.

However, since learning about coaching, I can no longer suppress my true feelings or tell lies, and I have become uncomfortable when I try to pretend.
It is a very good thing, but it was uncharted territory for me, so I was confused at first.

I am surprised at how difficult it has become to do 'have to' things once I have set my own standards.

When I try to overlook my 'want to', my body sends a signal through physical pain and forces a stop.
Alternatively, problems arise where those around me cause delays, leading me back to the flow of 'want to'.

I am currently dealing with a stomachache that has lasted for several days.
A stomachache so bad that my back hurts.
I face what I don't want to do.
I look for the root cause and deal with it.
If I am off the mark, the pain does not subside.

The princess (my inner self) this time seems to be in a bad mood about various things...
Being in a bad mood seems to mean that my conscious self has not been able to grasp the thoughts of my inner self, causing my physical condition to go haywire.

But since I told her I would face it, I have no choice but to do so.
I have already placed an order to understand everything thoroughly and to be taught.

The self that is moving consciously, and
the self that is seeking within,
the more they diverge, the more things stagnate and health is harmed.
If it hasn't been many years, you can get by, but as the years go by, the bill comes due.

It manifests in various ways, such as becoming seriously ill, suffering from large financial losses, or having trouble with family members.

I have lived my life thinking that I have been weak ever since I was born with this body.
I have denied myself, wondering why I was born with such a body.

But I realized recently.
That my inner self (my Higher Self or the Great Being) had been sending me signals all along.

I had arbitrarily decided that it was a misfortune and lived my life under that assumption.

Finally, I have been able to realize and accept that my body is made to be sensitive and clear in receiving those signals.

Therefore, this time, I intend to be more patient than usual, and even if I cry out, I will face it again and move forward.