"You failed, congratulations." Words from a clumsy teacher that gave me a push.

An incident from one day.

I received some quiet yet direct words from a teacher of life who is both a benefactor and a mentor figure to me.

"Komami-san, you often get down whenever you fail, but conversely, I always feel like praising your failures."

At that moment, my chest tightened...
I desperately held back the tears that were about to overflow.
Because those were words that resonated with me more than anything else right now.

Every time I failed and felt down, I would blame myself,
"I'm such a clumsy, useless person..."

But through these words from my teacher, I was made to realize something.

The fact that I failed means that I didn't settle for the status quo,
but that it is a "proof of challenge" that I took a step into a new world.

A life spent just staying still, worrying about what others think and trying not to get hurt, must be boring and dull.

The parts that didn't go well, in other words,
"are areas for further growth"

The process of becoming able to do what you couldn't do before is the true sense of accomplishment and the fun of life.

I am currently struggling with all my might to let go of the narrow world I've been familiar with, little by little,
and become a new version of myself.

So, it's natural to fail.
It's a chance to accept my clumsy self, who often fails and gets down.
It's a beloved trail of challenges.

Even if I can't speak well at work...
Even if I get disappointed by the noise in the online world...

That's because I'm trying to live honestly with myself.

From now on, when I fail, I will praise myself in my heart, saying, "You did a great job challenging yourself!"

I have a teacher who praises my failures,
and close friends and people around me who accept me for who I am.

I don't have to become a perfect version of myself.

I will walk at my own beloved pace, enjoying all my room for growth,
and take things one step at a time.

I ended up rambling in the middle of the night.

Another week is starting, so... I'm going to sleep now.

The time had passed in the blink of an eye.

Staying up late on a Sunday is the day before a gloomy start, so...
normally it's strictly forbidden... (laughs)