[Mini-Essay] Things I Want to Let Go Of

Tonight is a full moon.
I read in Nau🦌-chan's article that the full moon is the time for letting go.

After thinking about it for a bit, I wrote in a comment to Nau🦌-chan, "Let's let go of the heart that worries about the future~." Lately, I've been practicing "focusing on the present without regretting the past or being caught up in anxieties about the future."
But for some reason, I'm still thinking about "letting go."
It is one of my themes for this year.
No, I've been thinking about it since last year, not just this year.
I've been finding the limiting beliefs that hold me back and trying to let them go, one by one.

The other day, I was watching some video (about the law of attraction✨ lol) and saw words like "Things go well when you stop being so serious."
I have lived my life seriously.
But I really hate being called serious by others.
I also hate being called reliable.
I think living seriously was unavoidable to protect myself. But I've always hated my serious self. Yet, it's difficult to stop being serious. Wouldn't that mean I'd just keep hating myself forever😢
I want to like myself.

I want to live without seriously fulfilling the responsibilities I feel are imposed on me, without seriously taking on other people's worries or trying to solve their problems, and instead live unseriously, carelessly, or even by relying on others, without keeping my guard up or thinking about anything.
But it's difficult.
Still, I think I'll try asking the full moon, "I want to let go of being serious🥺."

My big sister on Note, Maririn-onesama, says:
"We are the serious sisters, aren't we? We try so hard to be unserious in a serious way." That's exactly it. That's how hard it is for serious people to let go of being serious.
I wish people wouldn't say "You're so serious" to serious people. It usually hurts them.

🎀Maririn-onesama and me🎀
From the comments section of the previous article, "Tropical Night Tea Party"