I've written a book for people who want to live as their 'clumsy' selves.

I am hopelessly clumsy.

When I say that, people tell me, 'Clumsy people can't publish books,' but if you think you're clumsy, then you're clumsy. It's the same as thinking you're ugly—you just are (which is harsh).

There are all kinds of clumsy, and I'm not trying to compete by saying, 'I'm clumsier than you!', so I'll just proceed with that in mind.

In my case, I didn't even really understand what it meant to 'enter society' in the first place. I couldn't write entry sheets, I slept through interviews, I failed at job hunting, and I only started my career because I was picked up at the very last minute before graduation.

From getting fired from a part-time job on my first day as a student, to knocking over 100 Mont Blanc cakes and having to throw them away, to being unable to wake up in the morning and oversleeping by an hour every day, things were such a mess that I genuinely thought, 'If someone like this enters society, they'll die.'

I still can't forget the look on my senior colleague's face when they were fed up with me, or the words of the employee who said, 'You don't have to come in anymore.' It's a trauma.

As I watched my friends breezily say, 'If you calculate the time you need to wake up by counting backward from when you need to leave, you won't be late,' I would think, 'Why can't I do what normal people do so easily?' 'I must not be trying hard enough,' and my self-esteem would plummet.

But, in my own clumsy way, I decided that I 'still wanted to do what I wanted to do.' I changed my environment, changed my relationships, and before I knew it, I had reached the state of mind where I thought, 'Maybe it's okay to just stay clumsy.'

I had achieved enlightenment.

What a clumsy person needs isn't to turn 'things they can't do' into 'things they can do.'

It's about creating an environment where 'it's okay not to be able to do things.' And it's about being able to accept yourself, thinking, 'It's okay that I can't do this.'

That's why I've always been open about being clumsy, without hiding it. I say, 'I'm living my life in my own clumsy way.'

The editor who approached me for this project was someone who had been reading my notes all along.

They were interested in my laid-back mindset and asked me, 'Would you like to publish a book about being clumsy?'

Actually, this was even before the talk of publishing my previous work, 'The Habit of Writing.' Once again, note is amazing, isn't it? It's full of dreams.

By the way, this book contains absolutely no 'know-how' on how a clumsy person can stop being clumsy.

It doesn't tell you 'how to become a freelancer,' and to be honest, it doesn't contain anything concrete.

Or rather, it's not even a business book to begin with.

'Isn't this way of thinking good?' 'Maybe that's just an assumption?' It's a book that loosely conveys a mindset for living loosely,

like a 'monologue' (boom).

If you read my note regularly, you might already have a sense of the vibe.

It's structured like an essay collection, packed with the notes I've written so far!

I've been writing notes sporadically since 2018, and the most common feedback I've received is,"I felt somehow saved,"that kind of comment.

The sense of relief that "I wasn't the only one."

The reassurance that "there are people who are clumsy but still living their best."

The new discovery that "there was a way of thinking like this!"

I picked up my pen hoping that I could deliver that not just through notes, but to many people through a book.

In the first two chapters, I share the story of how I came to think,"It's fine to just stay clumsy."

In the second half, rather than just about being clumsy, I've divided it into three broad categories:"Work," "Relationships," and "The world around us,"and I've written down the ways of thinking I value and words that make your heart feel a little lighter.

I'd be happy if you could read it with the mindset of "maybe I'll read a bit before bed."

As a new experiment this time, I've drawn some50-point illustrationsfrom scratch. (I thought I was going to die)

I'm not an illustrator or anything, so they're clumsy, but there's an illustration about every three pages, so it should be fun to read!

I hope it becomes a laid-back "talisman book" for someone.

Now on sale at bookstores nationwide!

It's on sale at bookstores nationwide and on Amazon. Look for the pretty cover. Both paper books and e-books are available.

I'd like to hold various events to coincide with the publication, so I'm definitely looking forward to collaborations. I'd be happy to talk about themes like "clumsiness," "laid-back thinking," "freelancing," and "ways of working!"

Sigh... I hope many people will pick it up!