It Was True That 'Wishes Come True'

I realized it!!

Actually, all my wishes have been coming true. I just hadn't realized it.

I got sick,





couldn't continue my job,

(I was a nurse and a public health nurse)

had a falling out with my parents,
and was filled with feelings of 'pain' and 'sadness'.

But,

all of that was just my wishes coming true, wasn't it?



For example,

work...

It's painful! It's too busy!
I was overwhelmed by work alone, chased by housework and childcare, had no time for myself, and was always sleep-deprived.
Besides, I didn't want to work with that boss...
It's also painful to say 'I quit!'
So, the only options were maternity leave or sick leave...
And nursing...

My parents told me,

'Get a qualification! I won't let you go to university unless it's a department where you can get a qualification for women!' so I became a nurse, but...
Did I really want to do that?
And the parent-child relationship...

I am grateful to my parents.

That's why I can't treat them harshly, and I can't say no.
But, I don't want them to interfere.
Please let go of your child.
I want a reasonable distance.
I don't want you to entrust your happiness to me.
These were my true feelings.

Doesn't that mean they came true?




Quitting my job (by getting sick) also came true.




The self-questioning of 'Is this what I want to do?'

is something I've been able to re-examine (because I couldn't continue due to illness).
The distance from my parents has also come true (by having a falling out).

(As an aside, my mother's wish also came true.



My mother married young, endured mother-in-law problems,

and often said, 'I want to leave the house and live in Tokyo or somewhere.'
During my hospitalization, she rented a weekly apartment near the hospital in Tokyo.
She had a perfectly valid reason for my father and mother-in-law: 'My daughter's surgery, my daughter's care,' and her wish came true.
My mother's wish was,

rather than 'leaving on her own',
she wanted to be able to say,
'I really feel bad about leaving the house, but I have no choice but to go.'
During my hospitalization,
'I'm going there today♡' 'I'm going here tomorrow♡'

she looked very happy.
She should have just made it happen herself.
She really complicates things, haha.)

'Why are there only such painful things?'
I thought, but



everything was what I had wished for!

It was just that they had come true!

The important thing is

not just looking at reality and reacting with 'pain' or 'sadness',

but thinking, 'What wish came true to cause this reality?' and
realizing it.

If you can realize it,

you're not just feeling sad.

Rather,

you feel that you are proving that 'if you wish for it, it will come true'!

And, furthermore,

'No, no, I want to be like this even more!' you can update your wishes.


From now on, from this very moment, what shall I make come true♡

I'm just looking forward to it!!