I thought that when I wasn't doing anything, I wasn't connected

When I am in the bath,
I am "doing nothing."

I am not talking to anyone,
nor am I healing anyone.
I am not delivering kind words,
nor am I creating anything.

In that state,
I lacked the "feeling of being connected to the world,"
and I suddenly realized.

Oh, I—
I had been thinking somewhere deep down
that I have no value when I am doing nothing.

I hadn't even realized myself
that I was feeling that way.

In truth,
even when I am doing nothing,
even when I am just relaxing,
I am emitting a wonderful vibration,

and I am gently connected to the world—

I want to think that.
I want to be able to feel that way.

But perhaps I still
can only feel at ease
when I am "being useful to someone."

However, I think that
"realizing that" today
is a gentle step forward for me.

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Even when I am relaxing,
I am properly connected to the world.

Somewhere in my heart,
even though I still don't fully believe it,
I will gently scoop up those thoughts
and record them here.