I'm sure I'll be fine now

I've changed departments.
I haven't started full-scale work yet.

Unlike before, I'm now in an environment where I can work at my own pace.
In exchange, I'm prepared for the fact that the generous allowances I've been receiving will likely be reduced.

Things I've been giving myself since last year, even if I sometimes forgot.
To be comfortable.
To fulfill my desires as much as possible.
To be conscious of satisfying myself.
Recently, I feel like the effects have finally started to show little by little.

Until now, I had work that required me to cooperate with people from the same shops on events many times a month.
Participation was optional, and taking time off was free.
Even so, when I thought about the events, I found myself shifting my requested time off and second-guessing what others might think.

There is no one so immature that they would complain if I took a day off for an event.
It was just my serious personality that chose to second-guess others.

Because of that, over the past year, I sacrificed time to visit my parents and aunt.

From this month on, I don't have to second-guess anymore.
Once I realized that, I took action immediately.
This month, I'm going to see my parents and aunt.
Next month, I'm going to the place where a friend I used to live with is.

In the last week, I just went for it!
I went ahead and scheduled them.

Now I'm grinning while looking at my calendar.
Working at my own pace while also enriching my private life.

I never imagined such a comfortable time would come.
I won't bully myself.
I won't neglect myself.
I will cherish myself.
I will grant what I desire.

When the inside changes, the surrounding environment naturally changes as if it's being pulled along.

I choose for myself.
I will continue to be careful.
I won't miss the small voice of what I desire deep in my heart.


Tomorrow is Monday.
I will face the work I've been given
with care.
There are many things I'm not used to, but
I'll move forward slowly without rushing.
How can I stay comfortable?
I will always keep that in mind.


Surely,
surely,
I'll be fine now, won't I?

Thank you for reading.
Thank you for the happiness.
I am grateful for the connection we've made.