[Final Episode] 65 Flowers, Birds, Wind, and Moon

I am busy right now.
I have finally gotten used to waking up early.
(...though that means around 9 o'clock 😃)

In addition to getting ready, I perform several routines.
Then, I decide my actions based on "what today is like."

・The weather is amazing!
　　→Let's wash all the bedding!
・It's a gentle breeze!
　　→Let's hang a wind chime on the balcony!
・I want to read that book!
　　→Let's head out to the library!

Something like that.
I start cooking while running the washing machine.
In the middle of it, I sunbathe on the balcony. I lean over the balcony railing as much as I possibly can, letting the sunlight hit my face, hands, and arms.
Whether it's cloudy ☁ or raining ☔, I want to look at the view from the balcony regardless. There is always a different sky there. Since my heart and body are different from yesterday's me, the scenery reflected in my eyes naturally changes too.
Like thinking today's clouds ☁ look tastier than usual, or that the birds that always land on the neighboring roof are busy today.
This is how I savor the ever-changing world every morning as a reborn version of myself.

After finishing a meal that is like a late breakfast or an early lunch, I go for a walk. Whether it's the library, the neighborhood promenade, the bakery, or the greengrocer... I stroll along, exploring and enjoying "today." I don't go to far-off places that require taking a train.
When I get home, I sit at my computer and cultivate my blog. I upload articles about homemade meals and sweets.

Bringing in the laundry, making sweets or pre-prepared side dishes,
reading books, watching movies or anime, or watching cooking videos for mental training—by the time I do all that, the sun begins to set.
I start on dinner again.
I take a bath to relax my body.
I drift off to sleep, feeling soft and fluffy.

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I feel as if the time until last year, when I was deeply immersed in the spiritual world, was a dream or an illusion. I also think I was seeing a fantasy.
For a long time, I wandered in a 3D world where time had stopped. But there were things I had to do while stopping time.
I swam through the world of mirrors with all my might, kicking my hands and feet. But now, it turns out that even before I dove in, it was already decided that "the goal is after swimming X km with the crawl stroke."
Things seen in visions are visible because they have already happened in some future. At the same time a problem occurs, the arrangements for its solution are also prepared. When a promise is made, it is fulfilled. People I have met have parted ways.
It was a good opportunity to learn such things. It is because of this period that "now" exists.

At the time, it seemed like an endless maze. But the scenery on the other side of the tunnel began to appear within me. It felt long, yet also like it happened in the blink of an eye. If I were to put what I have been working on into words, it would be "the independence of the soul."

For now, I have kept my promise to myself.
How should I put it... a sense of accomplishment. This is the end 🙌✨
That is the kind of mood I am in.
At this timing, I am drawing a line and ending "inside the secret base."
65, huh... I did my best 😳✨ Many things happened.
Thank you!

It is difficult to find so-called "people who are awake and living." This is because, first of all, one cannot recognize that they are asleep. If you haven't opened your eyes in the first place,
you cannot perceive. Not being able to perceive means it is not reflected in your eyes. Therefore, you cannot recognize it. That is the kind of world it is. When you think about it, it is a simple reason.
In fact, I think there are many people who live awake or have attained enlightenment. Then why is it that when you become deeply immersed in the 3D world (the internet space), you stop meeting them? It is because when you wake up, you leave the 3D world.
Because you are absorbed in your own life and are living in reality (4D and above) with your feet on the ground, you no longer use the 3D world, where the concept of time has completely fallen away, as your foundation. Once you become able to fully savor the reality in front of you, you lose interest in frozen time and space.

Licking each other's wounds, blaming each other, and
searching for the correct answer or asking others for their opinions also disappear.
"This is good," "That is bad"
"That person is right," "This person is wrong"
Most of what is unfolding in the internet space is this, but I have lost interest in searching for the correct answer to life or checking my answers, and I have gradually started to distance myself.
I incorporate all the polarities of things, and on top of that, I express how I want to exist. The field to express that is "reality," and it is the one and onlylifethat can be experienced with this physical body.

Furthermore, I have come to live according to my own heart and with self-responsibility. A state where there is not a single lie to myself, and I can take responsibility for my emotions and actions. In other words, it is building a spirit that does not blame others, and at the same time, being able to choose not to carry the responsibilities that others should bear. This becomes the foundation.
Because I can savor emotions with an honest heart, the shifts in my emotions are busy. The objects of my interest change one after another. That might look like a small child at times. Then, at other times, it feels like a constantly calm sea.
Because I have internalized the past, I have vast memories, but I don't pull them out to cross-reference them. Because I can see the future, I can safely cherish every single second in front of me.

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Well then...
The path I have walked so far was a steep one for me. But I am very satisfied now.
By the way, I looked back a little on my path.
As I have talked about on this blog, it was indeed"a clumsy LIFE". There were so many things I didn't know, I made many mistakes, and I was covered in wounds. But my soul remained shiny.
I have continued to notice and acknowledge many things. I was able to learn honestly, reflect, and correct myself.
This is my point of pride.


In my clumsy LIFE, I noticed this.
I like the phraseFlowers, Birds, Wind, and Moon, and I think it represents "my path."
Generally, "Flowers, Birds, Wind, and Moon" is

❝a four-character idiom meaning beautiful natural scenery or the refined taste that values it.❞
　　　　　　　　　　　　(Quoted from Wikipedia)

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My path followedFlower → Bird → Wind → Moon.
First, I look at the"Flower"that I can see and touch, and savor its color, texture, scent, and so on. I have various experiences associated with matter and the physical body.

Once that is done, it is the"Bird". I have to raise my gaze a little. Birds are flying in the sky. I enjoy their flying figures and their cries. I meet people who live in a different space than I do, and through interaction, I newly train my mental aspect. I meet creatures that fly around in the vast sky and accept the differences between them and myself.

"Wind"is something you feel. It cannot be seen with the eyes. You can recognize it by seeing the visible trees and leaves swaying. You scoop up the invisible truth from within the visible things.

Finally,"Moon". Does the moon exist?
It is there, but its substance is not well understood.
The new moon should be there, yet it is "nowhere" to be found.
I am fascinated and tossed about by things that are "not there."
I reach the stage of making such things my object, and I learn that "there is no substance in this world."

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If you cannot notice the scent of the flower in front of you, you will never notice the existence of the bird. If you cannot recognize the existence of the bird, you will not feel the wind dancing in that space either. If you cannot feel the invisible wind, it is absolutely impossible to perceive the silent moon.
The theme of life changes from visible things to invisible things. I think my path has undergone such a transition.

Just as 'death' is determined the moment one is 'born' into this world, the points of ending and beginning for all things overlap.
If you can walk the path properly, life is on autopilot, and if you follow your heart, you will never stray from the path. However, I think many people misinterpret what it means to 'follow your heart'.
What it means to follow your heart—.
It does not mean getting things to go your way, satisfying your desires, or forcing your own opinions. That is the exact opposite behavior. If you do this, you will stray from your own life.

The details were written in 60, 63, and 64. ↓

'You must reap what you sow'is a saying.
At the time of sowing, everything is already decided.
This is because it is determined what kind of flower will bloom depending on what kind of seed you sow. After sowing pumpkin seeds, even if you water them diligently hoping that 'roses will bloom,' unfortunately, pumpkins will sprout. Roses will not bloom. Yet, there are people who lament that roses do not bloom. That is not the case. You were the one who sowed the pumpkin seeds. And to make matters worse, you might trample the ripened pumpkins, throw them away, or move to another field and sow pumpkin seeds again.
And then, they say this:
'What I sowed were roses.'

Even if you are not aware that you sowed pumpkin seeds, the ripened pumpkin is essentially a delicious pumpkin that helps you grow. Accepting reality is knowing your own limitations. When the gap between ideals and reality disappears, people can feel happiness.

There is a saying: 'cause and effect'.
The meaning is 'that rewards arise based on the good or evil of past actions,' but it is a phrase that succinctly describes this world.
I knew the meaning, but it was only recently that I was able to understand the essence. Knowing something as knowledge and understanding its essence are two different things.
There were countless such things. It was also a path of acknowledging them.

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The 'My Day' I spoke of at the beginning is a wish my soul was seeking. I was able to remember it.
So, I am busy now.
For example, if you, who are reading this, look at my life and think, 'Is that fun?', then things that have that much resistance, things you have excluded from your consciousness, things that are in your blind spot and cannot be recognized—those very things might be what you should accept as your 'soul's wish.' That is how far outside your own perception they are. There is scenery that can only be seen after accepting the 'impossible'.

The true wish of the soul is not something that can be answered by thinking it through with your head, nor is it something someone else can teach you. It cannot be found on the extension of 'if only I were okay,' 'if only I could get that,' 'if only I had money,' or 'if only that person would disappear'.
'Accepting,' 'letting go,' 'acknowledging'
It is a cliché, but when you reach such a state of mind, it suddenly appears.

I understand that this 'Inside the Secret Base' is rarely seen by others because 'it is unnecessary for the majority of people.' The path I have walked could not possibly resonate with many people. Because it is my own path. However, if you feel something when encountering my words, it is likely because you are 'seeing (projecting) yourself within Ayumi.' I believe it is because everyone is connected at the root.

Since I positioned this blog as 'introspective work & proof of love' from the beginning, now that I have achieved the independence of my soul, I cannot find the words to write. I would like to conclude it around here for once. I hope to create a new magazine in the future, but I cannot think of one at the moment. I intend to continue posting as 'All Love's Clumsy LIFE'😃.
Currently, Ayumi's interests are 'home cooking' and 'Mogupoko Diary'✨

『Inside the Secret Base』 ends here💗
Thank you very much😊

『　Water and a crescent moon☽ in this small chest　』
　Ayumi☽