Days I Want to Take a Break from Being Sick, and Stories of Small Happiness

Following yesterday, today I am once again using a prompt from the "Writing Club" that I always rely on.
Kotoba-to-san, thank you as always!

This is definitely it.
There is nothing else.

I want to take a break from being sick!!

That's a strange way to put it...

But dealing with my sick self really takes a lot of energy.
Every single day, I have to think about what's wrong, why it's wrong, and what I can do to improve it.
I have to think about those things 24 hours a day.
I wish I could have some time to just ponder things like, "What should I have for dinner tonight?"


And in my case, it's not just one or two illnesses.
So, I have to keep my antennas up all over my body.
Of course I'm tired every day with this.

How many hours did I sleep?
Did I have an appetite?
Was it painful to do housework?
Is my neck stiff while I'm writing?

Is my ear ringing?
Am I cycling between mania and depression?
How is my atopic dermatitis?
And, will I be able to sleep tonight?
I'm just so fed up.

Being able to handle these things without any issues is a huge blessing.
It is not something to be taken for granted at all.
It is human nature to think that what we can do now is a given.

But
"Alcohol tastes delicious"
Isn't that the height of happiness?
Because I take medication, I cannot drink alcohol.

Is there any way I could escape from being sick for once?
Is it possible to take a break from being sick?
Ah, but this assumes that returning to a sick state is the premise.

I don't know what state being healthy refers to.
My eating disorder started in my teens, and when I turned twenty, I developed atopic dermatitis.
I don't know what it's like to have no illnesses and no problems with my physical condition.
I want someone to tell me what being healthy feels like.

But because of that, I understand the gratitude of being healthy much more than healthy people do.
It's almost fair to call that my pride.
Just being able to feel that my shoulders are a little lighter makes me happy, and if I can sleep well and eat well, that is enough. I feel like saying "Thank you!" to God.

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This book is written very realistically about what specific symptoms the author, who suffers from frailty just like me, struggles with and what measures she takes against them.

Anyway, it's intense.
I also have a very frail constitution, but I'm no match for the author.
Even though she manages her diet and exercise stoically, she still can't achieve average health.
And she's still in her thirties.

The part that resonated with me was this.

"There were moments when I felt happy just to be alive even with nothing."
I think this way of feeling is very important.

It made me realize once again that when you are constantly blessed with happiness, you cannot truly appreciate it.


I hope those who are healthy now are grateful for that happiness, and those who are not healthy can live by finding happiness in the small joys that visit them from time to time.

Did you feel even one thing that made you happy today?
What was that thing that made you feel happy?
Please do tell me.

I have started a paid magazine!
I would like to make it a place to think about the "difficulties of living."
Let's get closer to happiness, little by little.
It is scheduled to be updated once a week.

I am accepting questions for me!
Please note that I may answer them in articles, regardless of whether they are paid or free.

Please also read this regarding the question box.

Depending on my physical condition or circumstances, I may take a break from replying to comments.

Also, because I want to value my writing time more, I will keep my comment replies concise.

Additionally, I will refrain from replying to replies, but I am reading all of them with care.

Thank you so much, as always.