Ambiguity is also fine

Dear My Universe -

Whenever I try to put something into words,
I often find myself suddenly stopping right before the filter of language.

But something is sprouting there just fine,
and that energy,
in a place no one can see,
is blowing around energetically
like a spring breeze.

That "something,"
I am the one
who captures it
and turns it into a song.

That "something" that cannot be put into words, that doesn't become language.
The feeling of hesitating without trying to turn it into characters.
(Moji = characters... it's funny, isn't it?)

The reason I haven't felt like writing a blog until now
is probably this struggle with my "self that cannot be turned into text,"
because there is a part of me that is endlessly intuitive.

But one day,

Ambiguity is also fine.
Ambiguity is also the right answer.

That realization came to me.

Even if I can't write it clearly,
even if I can't write it distinctly,
with the vagueness
and that space and balance in between,
the vibration in the gap,
embracing that,
I am the one
who sits majestically

in that place,
living
in the ambiguous,
in-between space.

When I was able to
accept that,
I decided to create this space.

So,
my Note
might be full of air,
but please,
I hope you'll be kind to me.

In this way,
one by one, the spells (things I hadn't accepted)
that I cast on myself are melting away.

With the stillness and gentleness like dawn at a lakeside,
it is quiet,
and the light is gradually,
softly spreading.

The sound of
lapping water.

Love you,

Mari

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Bow and Yarrow is
an indie rock band from Seattle led by yours truly, Mari.
I hope you'll check us out.

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