No room, no room, no room, no room❗️
Morning
You absolute idiot
Why are you going to sleep at 5 AM? Because "Bokurano" was released for free for 72 hours.
I've watched the anime and read the manga repeatedly, and even though it's one of my favorite works, I don't remember the ending at all. I was reading it with that reason in mind too.
The first time I watched the anime, I cried my eyes out and sobbed out loud.
I like Kako. He's a person who didn't have any room to spare to begin with, and then he's suddenly given a time limit on his life and forced to bear responsibilities that are way beyond his limits, so he goes 'Ahhhhh❗️❗️❗️' and meets an ending that feels like, 'Oh...'
When I first watched it, I liked him for some reason because he was 'the most human' (I was really into the word 'human' back then. How lame!). Now that I'm this age and reading it again, I think it's probably because there are too many parts that overlap with myself.
Kako is probably the most realistic, or rather, wouldn't most people end up like Kako? I think there are a lot of people who feel like they have a lot in common with him.
I get it~ I get it, Kako~~😭 Even when you become an adult, you end up like that. If you meet various people, you'll find at least a few parts where you can somehow barely make compromises... but even if you're told that as a child, it doesn't resonate even one millimeter, right!? I get it... Because the person telling you that was just like that themselves, right!? So what!? What does that have to do with me!? And who are you anyway!?!! That's how it is...
No, it overlaps so much that this is basically me. Phew...
Selfish until the end, no, because it's the end, he's being selfish with all his heart and soul... yeah... I'll probably end up like Kako too.
Actually, the other kids are too mature.
I imagine that children who are mature, children who aren't like children, have been deeply hurt by their family environment or things they were born with, and the episodes that explain why they became like that by the first year of middle school are truly heartbreaking.
Each of them has their own strength, but it feels wrong to call it beautiful or tough, or rather, it feels like I can't say that to these children who are fighting against everything, so, I can't find the words.
If I were in that world and saw those children on TV, I feel like I would die while experiencing this kind of helplessness and saying things like, 'I can't say anything...'
Work
So, I'm naturally sleep-deprived and have no room to spare, and I'm constantly slightly irritated, and I really hated myself.
Reading manga until 5 AM and being sleep-deprived and irritated, what are you... you're a real idiot... even at 30 years old... I can't believe it...................
Also, at work, annoying things happened in various places, which made my brain even more unstable!!!
I want some breathing room! Yeah~~.
Today was my nephew's graduation ceremony, and my sister sent me a video or photo while I was at work. I started watching the video of my nephew singing at the graduation ceremony during my break, and I almost started crying, so I stopped it after 40 seconds.
I thought, I want to do whatever I can so that he can live feeling as much happiness as possible!!😭
Congratulations!
He had the loudest voice and it was a great song! His suit was also super cool!!
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That's a message from someone who looks like they'll be dead in a few days... I'm definitely going to live.
Night
Made ginger pork with my sister and had dinner!
I've already taken a bath, so I'll watch some videos, eat some Shirokuma ice cream, and read the rest of Bokurano!
That's what I thought, but I'm going on a trip at the end of next month, so I need to list up the places I want to go.
I'm saying this to the empty void where no one is, but if you have any recommendations around Aichi or Shizuoka, please let me know!
I'll look for vintage clothing stores too!