I am currently in the process of readjustment

It seems I am being guided by transiting Neptune and Saturn.

I have kept this place called note unopened for a long time.
It is not that I lack topics to write about or that I lack words.
I have always kept thinking somewhere inside, 'I will start once I am a bit more prepared.'

While learning astrology bit by bit for about five years now, I have struggled with reading my own horoscope in various ways, and have worried many times that it was too early to start sharing.

However, recently, transiting (currently moving through the universe) Neptune and Saturn have moved into the 2nd house of my natal (at birth) horoscope, and events have occurred that have forced me to realize that my 'values' and 'sense of security' are gradually changing.

My natal Sun (☉) and transiting Neptune (♆) are at approximately 150 degrees
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my natal Sun (☉) and transiting Saturn (♄) are at approximately 150 degrees

The celestial body Neptune represents ideals, dreams, and so on,
and Saturn represents restrictions, duties, and so on.
And the Sun is the theme of one's life.

These have come to form a positional relationship (aspect) called a quincunx (150 degrees).
A quincunx is said to be a positional relationship like a dissonance that creates discomfort and tension, making one feel that they cannot move forward without making adjustments.

In a word, it is a state of 'being completely lost between my own ideals and reality'.

(I will omit the details here, but) having lost something significant, I have come to repeat the self-questioning, 'What should I live for from now on?'

'What is true value to me?' Even while writing this, I am proceeding by trial and error while feeling lost. Some people may already know their life's purpose and are forging ahead on that path. However, I am nearing sixty, and I am still in the fog.

Neptune is a celestial body that is further away from Earth than Saturn and moves slowly. Therefore, it will move through the 2nd house of my natal chart (birth horoscope) as if drifting quietly over 13 to 14 years.

In astrology, the 2nd house is said to be a place that signifies self-worth, income, possessions (both physical things and innate talents), and a sense of security.

Being asked about 2nd-house matters for over ten years... that can be called a quite difficult task.
*Saturn moves in about two and a half years.

So, this note is an interim report of that inquiry.
'I am currently in the process of readjustment'... If you would like, please take a peek at my path of confusion.