Even the fear-avoidant type is cute.

You want to get closer, but the closer you get, the more afraid you become.

You want to be pampered, but you end up hating yourself for wanting it.

The "retreating back" you have seen may not have been rejection,
but simply a sign of clumsiness.

Fearful-avoidant types have a
somewhat bittersweet structure where
"the more they like someone, the more afraid they become."

They were smiling yesterday,
but today they cannot meet your eyes.

They were kind,
but the next day they suddenly kept their distance.

That contradiction may have caused you pain.

But you know,

that was also proof that you were special.

They wouldn't be shaken by someone they didn't care about.
They wouldn't run from someone they didn't care about.
They wouldn't go silent for someone they didn't care about.

The reason they were shaken,
the reason they ran,
the reason they went silent,
was because their heart was moved only by you.

For fearful-avoidant types, "like" and "fear" ignite at the same time.

That is why, the moment they touch your kindness,
something deep inside their heart trembles.

"If I get close to this person, I might break."
"If I rely on them, I might be hated."
"If I show my weakness, I might be abandoned."

That fear manifests in the form of avoiding you.

In truth, they don't dislike you at all.

Quite the opposite; because they were shaken "only by you,"
they didn't know how to handle it.

The pain you felt was real.
But their wavering was also real.

It is not a matter of who is right
or who is wrong.

It is just that the reactions of your two hearts missed each other.

The fact that you were hurt,
and the fact that they ran away,
were both ways of 'protecting your heart'.

Just knowing that
will bring a day when breathing feels a little easier.

Today, that one step is enough.

'Fearful-avoidant types are cute, too.'
May there be a little bit of space left in your heart
to think that way.