[BL Fanfiction (R18)] An Unspeakable Secret (1)
I first met him in the summer of my second year of university—.
That night, I was drinking at my apartment with Yasutomo, my boyfriend since high school.
We had both been busy with club activities, seminars, and part-time jobs, so it had been a while since we last met.
Since we were finally old enough to drink, we had bought plenty of beer and sake.
University is off tomorrow, and we both don't have work until tomorrow night.
We planned to drink all night long.
"Are you sure it's okay to mix drinks like that?"
"It's fine, it's fine. If I feel like it's getting bad, I'll just stop."
"Just don't throw up on the carpet."
"I've got a convenience store bag right here."
"Are you sure you don't have a hole in you? I'll get a washbasin ready."
"Don't put something like that where I can see it. It'll ruin the taste of the booze."
We haven't drunk to our limits yet.
So tonight, we planned to test just how much we could drink.
Yasutomo's face is already bright red and he's become quite cheerful.
But we're still holding a conversation, and his consciousness seems clear.
I feel a bit lightheaded, I suppose.
My self-control is still working, telling me I need to stop soon because I'll have to take care of Yasutomo if he passes out.
Haha.
At this rate, I won't be able to drink to my limit, will I?
Oh well.
It was right after I had finished off the fourth bottle of shochu.
Yasutomo is acting strange.
“...Sniff.”
He is looking down, sniffling.
His fist, clenched tight on the table, was trembling violently.
...Is he crying?
What's wrong, Yasutomo? Are you okay?
Did something unreasonable happen at your part-time job?
I reached out and placed my hand on Yasutomo's shoulder.
...Why?
Huh?
Why?
What do you mean?
Yasutomo looked up.
Tears were streaming down his face.
He looked at me with a sorrowful expression and said this.
"Why won't you see me more often!"
……Huh?
"Between club activities and your part-time job! Don't just leave me alone for days and weeks on end!"
……!
"Are you really fine without seeing me at all?!"
"W-wait, Yasutomo?"
"I mean, I want to see you every day. Just like back in high school. Not through phone calls or texts, but in person."
Yasutomo sobbing.
Yasutomo... Yasutomo wants to see me...?
He's crying and telling me he wants to see me every day...?
I can't believe what I'm seeing right in front of me.
That Yasutomo, who is always so prickly and headstrong...
"I'm thinking about you every single day, my head is full of you. I'm lonely... I miss you..."
He was wiping his tears with the back of his hand while sobbing.
Is this... Yasutomo's true feelings?
Does this mean his true feelings are coming out because he's drunk?
I was so surprised that my drunkenness completely wore off, so I moved next to Yasutomo and put my arm around his shoulders.
"Yasutomo..."
At that moment, Yasutomo lunged at me, hugged me, and shouted.
"You have to always be thinking about me too! You have to always be in love with me!"
"...!"
I was completely bewildered.
Even if he's letting his true feelings out because of the alcohol, isn't his personality completely different?
Was Yasutomo ever this clingy?
This is like he has a split personality, no, he's a completely different person.
"I love you. Shinkai. I love you. I love you."
“……!!”
Yasutomo... he finally told me he loves me for the first time!
He never said it even once—not when I confessed, not when we started dating, not during our first kiss, and not even during our first time together!!
Ah!
I see!
This Yasutomo, he’s in his 'dere' phase of being a tsundere!
He’s been nothing but 'tsun' until now, but after having a drink, his 'dere' side has finally been triggered!
It’s a symmetrical 'dere' that’s so different from the 'tsun' Yasutomo that you could call him a completely different person... yes, it’s 'Dere-kita'!
This was my first encounter with Dere-Kita --.