Maybe I've grown a little 😌

The third company drinking party of the month has ended. There has been a lot of staff turnover this month, and with various things overlapping, there have been many company events. Since there are 'no lies!' in my recent blog posts, I left in 'a way that I am satisfied with.' Yesterday, I didn't feel much guilt; I enjoyed the first round reasonably well and only participated in the extension for about 30 minutes. This was because, for me, 'it was a place I could return from without it getting too late,' and 'I had a feeling of wanting to bid farewell to someone leaving the site at the end of this month.'
When I went to say goodbye, thinking I would head home after the first round, my boss and the guest of honor called out to me, saying, 'Let's drink a little more together.' To be honest, I 'could have refused at that point.' However, I 'simply chose not to refuse of my own volition.' Being in this situation with members I've experienced this with many times before, 'I have surely learned,' and I also had 'a strong feeling that I must learn.' When the time came to wrap up the extension and move to another location, I said, 'I'm going home.' To be frank, I think I've said 'I'm going home' before.
However, I was weak in 'situations where I was invited even further.' Because I 'wasn't the kind of person who could say' 'I'm going home!' more strongly than that, I have 'carried guilt and frustration' many times in the past.
Surely, deep down, I felt 'not a little happy' about the 'situation where company people were inviting me.' I cannot deny that there was a part of me that 'wanted to cherish the feelings of those company people.' It was 'undeniably myself who lowered the priority' of 'my own time spent at home' in favor of 'myself who cherishes the company people.' I think the process of realizing that is consistent with the content of my recent blog posts.
That is precisely why I am reasonably satisfied with how I handled things this time. It is because I 'executed the choice to cherish' what I 'want to cherish' based on 'my own values.' With this choice, there was absolutely no guilt toward the company people, no guilt toward him, and no guilt toward myself. Strangely, I feel positive, thinking, 'I was finally able to make a choice that I can be satisfied with on my own.' It is precisely because I have accumulated several experiences until now that I was able to connect them to the present. I honestly feel that 'this might be my growth.'