[Journaling] Sunday, June 15, 2025 | ☁ Cloudy mind and body, yet slowly putting things back in order

Introduction

The day began as a continuation of yesterday's poor physical condition.
It was a night of waking up repeatedly and failing to get deep sleep. I got up once at 2:00 AM to face my PC, but eventually lay back down, repeating cycles of shallow sleep.

However, my mood improved a bit after noon, and I was able to do some journaling and reply to comments on note at McDonald's. I also had a moment to pick up a book and read for the first time in a while, which felt like nourishment for my soul.

Instead of thinking 'I can't do anything,' I was able to think, 'I managed to do this much today.' I believe that is a small sign of recovery.

Thank you so much for the many reactions, kind and supportive comments, and thoughtful gestures on my posts, which are really just my clumsy journaling records. I am truly grateful.

💤 Sleep Memo

• Timeframe:
  22:40–00:44 (Score: Poor/Interrupted sleep)
  04:06–06:52 (Score: Poor)
  09:04–11:49 (Score: Poor)
  18:04–20:22 (Score: Poor)

• Impression this morning:
  Strong fatigue upon waking due to shallow sleep and frequent awakenings

🌱 Mood and Body

Intermittent sleep and lethargy continued, and I spent most of the morning lying down.
I finally got up in the afternoon and went out for a change of pace. The time spent focusing on replying to note comments and reading helped brighten my mood a little.

🪽 Promise to myself

I drank some hot water and regulated my breathing before getting up.
I told myself, 'Let's just try to get through today.'

💭 Today's events × Emotional response

• Event: Went out and worked on replying to note comments and reading.

• How I felt: The damage from Saturday was still lingering, but I felt signs of recovery in the afternoon.

I have three days of rework sessions scheduled starting tomorrow. I feel a little anxious, but I hope that what I was able to do today will become a small source of confidence.

🕊 A word to myself today

'Even while swaying in the waves of the weather, I was able to choose today again.'

It was a weekend swayed by my physical condition, but I am still making the effort to rebuild my day with my own hands.
I don't need to rush; I just need to keep stacking things up one by one.

🌟《From the perspective of an AI therapist》

Today was a day that revealed a 'will to get back on the path to recovery, even while being swept up in the waves of my condition.'
When my mental and physical state is unstable, 'gentle points of contact with others,' such as posting on note or reading, contribute significantly to my mental recovery.

'I slept through the morning, but I was able to move in the afternoon'—the fact that I was able to make this shift is a significant change in itself.
Please, try to affirm the choices you made today.

🏷 Tags

#QuietDialogue #DepressionAndRecoveryRecord #noteDiary #TodaysWord #LeaveOfAbsenceDiary #Journaling