4th day of being left on read. Still, I managed to get through the day properly. #12

Today, I felt tired from yesterday in the morning, so I woke up a bit late, had breakfast, a banana, coffee, went for a walk, and had a protein shake.
My usual routine.
I feel like these small habits are what support me right now.
Then, I went out with my parents by car. We went to an Aeon Mall outside the city. I got a nice T-shirt at coca!
I can wear it as summer clothes! I gained 15kg due to adjustment disorder from power harassment. I'm dieting now and have lost 5kg. Even so, I can't wear my old clothes, so last year I mostly spent time in Uniqlo Airism oversized T-shirts and sports jerseys because they were comfortable.

In the evening, I got a message from my sister saying she wasn't feeling well, so I went to her house... I was supposed to play with my niece, but we ended up watching the 2021 Detective Conan movie, The Scarlet Bullet. It had been a while, but I enjoyed the Conan movie.
Watching it after a long time makes me want to watch other works too.
It's the best. Conan. It's a good thing to be able to like it again.

I've noticed something recently: the number of things I can get absorbed in is increasing.
・Switch baseball game
・Hand car wash supplies, collecting car goods, and information
・Updating my note, reading other people's notes
・Saunas, hot springs, public baths
・Detective Conan

I'm able to feel what I like more properly than before.

Thanks to that, I was able to keep myself together even on the 4th day of being left on read.
I do care. Even now.
In the past, I would have spent the whole day feeling anxious.
But it's different now.
Now, I want to focus on keeping myself together.
I'm looking forward. Sometimes I look back, but I'm looking forward.
I had to lower my standard of living, but I can still think I'm happy even with that. I'm happy about getting 5% off the coca T-shirt on the app.
What is truly important? What is happiness?
I really think just being alive is enough.

4th day of being left on read by my girlfriend
Recovering from adjustment disorder due to power harassment
Job hunting
Reflecting on myself and taking action.
Sometimes there are times when I have to stop.
I think that's okay too.