The Time-Traveling Journey of My Inner Hunk
The other day, I received this message in a comment exchange on note.
I was surprised.
To be told that I am a "truly bright person."
But when I reread my own note,
it was like a note written by a social butterfly.
And I thought,
over the course of several years, my mental OS has been replaced.
Do you want to see me before my OS was replaced??
(From an old blog)
An article from when I was working part-time while job hunting after quitting the company I joined as a new graduate.
Other than this, I was mass-producing a parade of negative articles, always tired and wanting to rest, complaining about the company, and complaining about the people around me.
I even harbored feelings of jealousy 💖
Coming full circle, this is actually quite funny in its own way.
With love from my inner hunk
I will never deny that negative version of myself from back then, before my OS was rewritten.
Rather, I want to send her a huge, huge amount of love and encouragement.
Or rather, I will send it. I'm sending it now.
I am sending love from the inner hunk who lives inside me right now.
*While a 3D hunk can only live in the present, my inner hunk can transcend time and space.
*You might have noticed, but today's article is on a whole new level of crazy.
You are really working hard every day, aren't you?
Good job. (Hug)
I know how you struggle every single day, trying your hardest to figure out how to get through it.
Always getting scolded, buried in a mountain of work, unable to take a break, and paid so little—it really makes you want to quit, doesn't it? It's like being in prison. You want to pull a Prison Break, right?
If you keep getting berated like this every day, it's no wonder you're losing your confidence.
It's okay to cry. Go ahead and cry. I'll wipe your tears away for you.
Your body is screaming, "This is too much!"
It's tough, isn't it? I know.
There, there. (Patting your head)
Hey, did you know? Feeling like things are tough is actually a sign that says, "This isn't the right path for you."
It doesn't mean, "Try harder and grit your teeth," you know?
That said, I'm sure it feels like that's the only path you have right now.
But I want you to hold onto that feeling that "this isn't the right path." The most reliable thing you have is your own "intuition." Remember that when you feel "comfortable" or "happy," it becomes easier to connect with me.
So, you should look for lots of things that make you feel comfortable and happy. Even the most trivial things are fine. Like, "this cafe latte is delicious," or "the weather is nice."
But even when you feel "tough" or "exhausted," you're actually still connected to me. I'm always by your side, cheering you on.
I just want to tell you this for now:
You can have confidence! You really can!
You are perfectly okay just by existing, you know?
So, you can have confidence!
You don't need to go out of your way to say things that whip yourself.
You get a perfect score just for being alive.
Since you've already got 100 points, why not aim for 120 with a lighthearted attitude, like, "I've got some free time, why not?"
I'll be cheering you on.
I love you! (^^)/
...Wow, I'm starting to tear up.
When I think about how, throughout this long, long"not the right path" period,my inner hunk has been
continuing to tell me,
"The path you're on isn't the right one~"
it makes me want to cry.
It's moving.
What is this, like a self-foreshadowing payoff?
Is there anything more embarrassing than this kind of self-directed performance?
No, seriously, what do I do?
This has become the most chaotic article I've ever written.
P.S. The OS replacement is still ongoing even now.