📓1. Looking back on memories with Mr. S from high school

Theme: "Things I want to talk about again"

・【Things I want to meet and talk about again】
　→Lately, I've been struggling with depression and sometimes feeling down, but I feel like I've become a little better at empathizing with others than I was back then. I'd like to ask him, "What do you think?"

📓2. Facing depression and praising myself

Theme: "Relationship with illness and praising myself"

・【How I have faced depression】
→There were days I wanted to cry, but there were also days I got through without crying. There were days I couldn't get up, but I at least managed to eat. I am moving forward little by little.
・【Things I want to praise myself for】　→Being able to say "I can't" on days when things are too much. Being able to ask people around me for help. Writing down these dream records like this now.

📓3. Balancing the feeling of "I wish you'd stop that" with "I want to understand"

Theme: "Events that made me feel uneasy + compassion for the other person"

・【A situation recently where I thought, I wish you'd stop that】　→When I was talking to someone and they were fiddling with their smartphone, I felt a bit lonely.
・【But, things I wanted to understand if possible】　→Maybe that person was tired too. I think maybe they were sorting out their feelings on their own.

📓4. Anxiety about the future and premonitions of change

Theme: "Anxiety about the future and signs"

・【"Future things" I felt anxious about】　→I wonder if I can become someone who is truly useful in society. I wonder if I can be of help to someone even while living with depression.
・【"Premonitions of change" I felt recently】　→I feel like I've become able to put my feelings into words little by little. So, maybe something will change.

📓5. Realizations about my mother and what I want to protect

Theme: "Realizations about family and parts I want to support"

・【Something I've been a little concerned about regarding my mother recently】　→There are days when she looks a little tired. I wonder if there are times when she acts cheerful so as not to worry me.
・【What part of my family do I want to protect?】　→I want her to be a mother who doesn't push herself too hard. Instead of just supporting others, I want to protect a place where she can truly rest.

📙📘📗📕📒📔📓 Bonus: Realizations gained from dreams and things that stayed in my heart

Theme: "What today's dream taught me"

・I have a habit of "worrying about others more than myself." But I was able to think that that is also a form of kindness.
・I was afraid of the dark road at night. But I thought that if I could walk with someone, the fear would decrease a little.

2025.07.31