What words that make me feel uneasy have taught me

I am writing this piece to face my own heart.

Recently, while reading articles, I encountered "words that make my heart feel uneasy."
They are by no means negative words. Rather, they are beautiful words wrapped in light.

"May happiness come to you all"

At that one sentence.

For some reason, at a sentence with such a beautiful meaning,
I feel... uneasy...
It shouldn't have been like that before.

I am thinking about the reason, and I am facing what I suspect it might be.

" Because they are words I cannot say from the heart at my current energy level "

If it were just writing them, I could do it. But,
as words from the heart,I cannot write them.

My energy is not enough to reach the level
where I can wish for someone else's happiness.

Is my cup of happiness not full?

Am I belittling the happiness I possess...?

I was startled.

At times, I found myself trying to draw the vague outline of an "ideal life I have yet to see."
But the image that ultimately came to mind as an "ideal life" was"a life not much different from now."No, I thought, isn't there something more optimal?

Thinking back now, that line of thought might have been making my "current happiness" something I took for granted.

One day, while I was wandering like that, I received a shocking answer from a YouTube video I happened to watch.

"People who are not trying to change end up changing tremendously as a result."

"Conversely, the more people struggle to change, the less they change."

T-this is it~~~😳

The message in this video became my prescription.

If I only use the explanation mentioned above, it might cause a misunderstanding. It does not mean that one should simply live with zero ambition.

Including my own personal interpretation, a "person who is not trying to change" is a "person who is truly satisfied with their current life." People whose hearts are fulfilled in that waynaturally have "things they want to do" welling up from within.If they live their days following that, one day they will realize they have arrived at an incredible place, and to the people around them, they might look like "special people with ambition."

I was convinced of this after seeing the success of a certain noter. They never touch on themes like "improving writing skills!" or "increasing view counts!" but instead write about a comfortable life calmly, beautifully, and sometimes powerfully, and as a result, they have gathered followers and likes on their articles. So this is what it's all about.

Perhaps because August was so hectic, the direction of my thinking may have started to drift.

My current life: I am blessed.
I am overflowing with blessed connections.
I am continuing with note, and there are people who read it.

My ideal life
Actually, it had already come true.

(Improving my writing skills is a "thing I want to do," so I will continue with it 😇)