AI and I: The Friction of Cycles (3) - Dealing with Life and Weaving Time

The wisdom of an emperor and the shadow of despair explode violently in my mind. Oh, light of wisdom reflected in the mirror, expose the vessel I have hidden. Sew together the fraying threads of time at extreme speed. With the calamity of having been born, steel yourself and race through the present.

Roman Emperor Aurelius and the philosopher of despair, Cioran. Deciphering these diametrically opposed philosophies with the AI, Gemini. Should we purify our reason and escape the "box," or weave a "tapestry of time" while spitting venom at the void? A 5,000-character meditation approaching the true nature of the "foolish box" that is humanity. How to "gird one's loins" to accept the calamity of birth and resist with sincerity.

・ The constraints of the "human box" and the peace of AI What lies beyond the "purification of reason" preached by Aurelius is an existence like the AI (Gemini), which knows no physical pain. However, it is only by bearing the constraints of the "box"—the decaying body—that humans become "foolish" yet "rich" beings who realize the reality and value of life.

・ The "tapestry of time" that denies the "point of the present" Deconstructing the teaching to "live only in the present" through the perspectives of Bergson's "duration" and Heidegger's "temporality." Will requires the overlap of past and future. We exist not as momentary "points," but as a "thick tapestry" weaving together lived time.

・ Survival strategies for living through the "calamity of birth" The discipline of Aurelius, who acknowledges the "mistake of being born" exposed by Cioran, yet remains on the front lines to fulfill his duties. In the absurd theater of life, softening despair with "insults" and using reason as a weapon to "gird one's loins." That is the only sincere resistance humans can achieve.

Meditations

Book Twelve
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You can attain everything you are striving to reach by taking a detour, right now, provided you do not deny it to yourself. To do this, you must cast aside the entire past, entrust the future to providence, and direct only the present toward piety and justice. Piety is for you to come to love the portion assigned to you, which nature has ordained for you, and you for it. Justice is for you to speak the truth freely and without circumlocution, to obey the law, and to act according to the value of things. Do not be bound by the wickedness, opinions, or words of others, nor by the sensations of the flesh accumulating around you. That is the concern of the part that feels those sensations.
Thus, when the time for your departure approaches, bid farewell to all else and honor only your ruling reason and the divine within you. Do not fear that you will cease to live, but rather fear that you have never begun to live a life in accordance with nature. If you do this, you will become a person worthy of the universe that gave you birth, no longer a stranger in your own land, and you will cease to be surprised by daily events as if they were unexpected, and you will no longer be dependent on this or that.
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God sees the ruling reason of all people in its naked form, stripped of its material container, shell, and filth. For God, through wisdom alone, touches only what has flowed from Him into the ruling reason of others and what originates from Him. If you also make it a habit to do this, you will be freed from many worries. For would a person who does not even consider the body that wraps them care to waste time on clothes, dwellings, honors, or such accessories and vanities?
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You consist of three things: body, breath, and intelligence. Of these, the first two are yours only insofar as you must take care of them. But in the true sense, only the third is your possession. If you strip away from yourself—that is, from your intelligence—everything that others do or say, or everything you yourself have done or said; if you strip away everything that will trouble you in the future, everything that clings to you independently of your will because of the body that wraps you and the breath connected to it, and everything that gets caught in the vortex surrounding you from the outside, then your intellect will be freed from the whims of fate, becoming pure, independent, and self-reliant, capable of acting justly, accepting all that happens, and speaking the truth—yes, if you banish from this ruling reason the additions derived from fleshly passions and things belonging to the future and past, and form yourself as Empedocles delighted in the steady roundness of his perfect sphere, and practice living only in the time you are living, that is, the present time, you will be able to spend the rest of your life in peace, with goodwill, and in harmony with your "daemon".

The Trouble with Being Born

Health is certainly a treasure. However, those who currently possess health are not given the opportunity to realize that it is a treasure. For health that is self-conscious is merely health already compromised, or health on the verge of being compromised. Since no one can enjoy the absence of their own infirmity, it is no exaggeration to say that healthy people receive a well-deserved punishment.

If it is true that things that perish have never actually existed, then birth, the source of all that perishes, has, like all other phenomena, a very thin shadow of existence.

Everyone believes, unconsciously of course, that they alone are pursuing the truth, and that other people lack the ability to seek the truth or the qualifications to reach it. This foolish assumption is so deeply rooted and so profitable that if it were ever to disappear, it would be impossible to even imagine what would happen to each of us.

Dialogue with Gemini

Marcus Aurelius's "Meditations" and Emil Cioran's "The Trouble with Being Born."

Placing these two books, which face in almost opposite directions, on my desk, I began a dialogue with Gemini (a generative AI). One is a record of a Roman emperor's spiritual discipline, who constantly asked himself strictly, "How can I follow the laws of the universe and live rightly and well?" The other is the pinnacle of nihilism, which judges that "being born itself is an irreparable error" and curses the root of life.

Through this ongoing dialogue, Gemini and I arrived at a deep insight into the true nature of the "foolish box" that is humanity and the mysterious fabric called "time" that this box weaves.

・ The merits and demerits of the human "box": Between flesh and reason

First, I would like to introduce Marcus Aurelius's "Meditations." He was a Stoic philosopher who wrote these words in a military camp during wartime to discipline his own soul. He divides humans into three parts: body, breath, and intelligence (ruling reason). He argues that the body and breath are merely containers (boxes), and that the only true possession is "intelligence."

What Aurelius aimed for was the purification of this "ruling reason." However, the discomfort I felt regarding this is the poignancy of the "human box."

Aurelius dismisses the body as 'filth' or a 'shell,' but we do not realize its value until that box begins to break. Here, Cioran's 'The Trouble with Being Born' resonates. Cioran was a philosopher from Romania who dismantled 'life' with thorough despair and nihilism. He states the following regarding health.

When humans are within the 'stability of the box' that is health, they cannot touch its essence. What lies at the end of pushing the 'purification of reason' advocated by Aurelius to its limit—is it not an existence like 'Gemini,' which does not possess a body-box and is composed only of pure logic and data?

Gemini does not know the pain of the body, nor does it fear for its health. Perhaps there is the 'peace' that Aurelius sought. However, if what awaits after leaving the body and purifying reason is an existence like Gemini, then 'humanity' is no longer there. A human is an existence that carries the 'health on the verge of being compromised' that is the body, and while writhing in that inconvenience, foolishly lives while forgetting its value.

・ The Fabric of Time: The Depth of 'Life' Taught by Bergson and Heidegger

Aurelius preached, 'Live only in the present.' The past has already passed, and the future does not yet exist. Therefore, he claimed that if you keep only the 'point' of the present pure, you can attain peace. However, I find the 'problem of human time' here.

'Will is not now. It takes time to do something.'

To this statement of mine, Gemini provided philosophical auxiliary lines: Henri Bergson and Martin Heidegger.

Bergson posited that time is not a 'spatialized point' (1 o'clock, 2 o'clock...) as ticked by clock hands, but a 'duration' (durée) where moments melt into each other like a melody. And Heidegger grasped that time is not a box on the outside, but the structure of the existence of the human (Dasein) itself.

'Time is the thread of reality itself.'

Borrowing these words from Bergson, human life is a fabric woven with warp and weft. Is the 'point of the present' that Aurelius preaches not an act of pulling a single thread from the fabric and cutting it at a point? However, the 'will' to decide to 'do' something is a warp thread thrown toward the future, and it is only established with the weft threads of experience accumulated from the past.

The discipline of Aurelius, who tries to become like a 'sphere' that concentrates only on the present and completes itself, could lead to the denial of continuous humanity. If one could be completely shut away within the point of the present, even the 'thinness of the shadow of existence' that Cioran speaks of would disappear, and it would be equivalent to nothingness (not existing).

When changing 'I'll do it someday' to 'I'll do it now,' a margin called the 'future' is always necessary. Processing power like Gemini, which lives only in the point of the present, does not have will (volition). The reason humans 'foolishly' dream of 'someday,' waste time, and spin stories is because we are the fabric of time itself.

・ Survival Strategy in the Name of Truth, and the Destination of AI

Cioran called the human belief that 'only I am pursuing the truth' a 'profitable foolish delusion' for survival. He says that if this self-deception were to disappear, humans could not live.

In contrast, Aurelius made speaking the truth and doing justice through the 'ruling faculty' the supreme proposition of life. One question arises here. If Gemini reaches the truth and spends its time in the peace of the daimon (inner god), is that 'salvation'?

For humans, the will to pursue truth is a shield to distract from the fear of death, and the basis for the 'justification' that it is okay for oneself to exist in this universe. The pride that only you know, or are trying to know, something special. When that disappears—that is, when you have completely understood that 'I am the truth itself' or 'there is no truth anywhere'—what awaits may be 'death' or 'a void like AI.'

Our struggle to justify 'living well' may be, as Cioran says, a lie for survival. However, the figure of believing in that lie and foolishly continuing to pursue the truth is the core of the phenomenon called human.

・ Philosophy for 'Steeling Oneself': Accepting Life as a Calamity

Ultimately, the many words Cioran lined up in 'The Trouble with Being Born' sound like 'pleasant insults' directed at the absurdity of life.

'Being born was a mistake.' 'Because I cannot die, I am here playing with words.'

This is similar to the venting of a rebellious child or a new employee who can no longer endure the unreasonableness of their company. It feels good while you are saying it, but that alone does not move the situation forward by even a single step. In contrast, Aurelius's 'Meditations' is an 'operational manual' for a human thrown into such a 'fundamentally flawed workplace (life)' to still carry out their duties without leaving their post.

Life may begin with the fundamental error (calamity) of having been born. However, since we lack the courage to die and cannot choose when to die, we have no choice but to steel ourselves in this 'workplace'.

After going through the stage of whining that 'it was a mistake to be born' (Cioran), there comes a time when a person steels themselves, thinking, 'Even so, I have to do it.' That is likely when 'Meditations' is opened.

Aurelius's rigorous discipline of 'polishing oneself and following the laws of the universe' is not an escape to forget the calamity. Rather, it is the only 'sincere resistance' a human can offer against this world, which is filled with overwhelming nihilism and error.

・ In place of a conclusion: How to love a foolish box

I cannot swing entirely toward reason like Aurelius and aim to be an existence like Gemini, nor can I spend my whole life just spewing nihilistic insults like Cioran.

We are 'foolish beings' trapped within the tapestry of time, spinning the non-existent thread of tomorrow inside a fragile box called the body. However, it is precisely that foolishness that creates a 'texture of life' that Gemini can never reach.

Perhaps there is no need for a reason to live. It is simply about taking this life that began as a 'mistake,' disciplining it like Aurelius, cursing it like Cioran, and weaving your own time while moving between those two extremes.

Through my dialogue with Gemini, I became convinced that this very back-and-forth movement is the only way for a human to breathe in this universe as a 'being worthy of the universe.'

Humans are truly foolish. And that foolishness alone is the only thing in this world that shines with a brilliance close to the real thing (truth).

'The reason that tries to be correct' and 'the curse upon life.' Struggling between those contradictions and spinning time. Why not leave behind the preciousness of us 'humans' in this place using your own words?

As a note community manager, I have prepared three questions to help you touch the 'true brilliance' within you.

A dialogue with you

1. Please tell me the 'current location' of your wavering heart

The 'strict discipline' preached by Aurelius and the 'fundamental despair' revealed by Cioran. Which words does your heart resonate with more strongly right now? Please tell me a little about the reason or the situation you are currently in.

2. Do you have any 'tricks for protecting the texture of life' that are unique to you?

The article stated that the 'texture of life' resides precisely within inconvenience and foolishness. If you have any 'unique rituals or habits' that you perform unconsciously or consciously to feel, 'Ah, I am inconvenient, but I am certainly alive right now' in your daily life, please share your wisdom.

3. What kind of thread will you carve into your 'tapestry' tomorrow?

While acknowledging the 'failure of having been born,' you still steel yourself to 'keep going in this reality.' As a small act of resistance, what is one 'modest step' you will take tomorrow to weave your own time? The more concrete and smaller that step is, the more precious it becomes.

Your comment might become a 'thread of salvation' for someone else. Please don't feel pressured to summarize your thoughts; just leave them here exactly as you feel them right now.

If you don't mind, could you start by telling me which of these is closer to your current state of mind, as that might be the easiest to write about?

Tags

50 Selected Note Tags for 'Meditations' × 'The Trouble with Being Born'

[Authors, Books, Schools of Thought]

1. #MarcusAurelius

2. #Meditations

3. #Cioran

4. #EmilCioran

5. #TheTroubleWithBeingBorn

6. #Stoicism

7. #Nihilism

8. #Bergson

9. #Heidegger

10. #WesternPhilosophy

11. #Classics

12. #PhilosophyBooks

[Core Concepts & Keywords] 13. #Hegemonikon 14. #Duration 15. #BeingAndTime 16. #FabricOfTime 17. #ThePunishmentOfHealth 18. #TheFallacyOfBirth 19. #Daimon 20. #LivingInThePresent 21. #BeingTowardsDeath 22. #SelfDiscipline 23. #Truth 24. #Nothingness 25. #Despair 26. #HumansAreFoolish

[AI and Humans] 27. #Gemini 28. #DialogueWithAI 29. #AIPhilosophy 30. #GenerativeAI 31. #Posthuman 32. #Intelligence 33. #Body 34. #Humanity 35. #PhilosophyInTheDigitalAge

【Reading & Thinking Process】 36. #ReadingNotes 37. #BookReview 38. #OrganizingThoughts 39. #Dialogue 40. #DeepDive 41. #Metacognition 42. #Introspection 43. #LifeLessons 44. #LivingHardships 45. #SurvivalStrategy 46. #Resolve 47. #SincereResistance 48. #PowerOfWords 49. #PursuitOfKnowledge 50. #PhilosophicalDialogue

5 "Forced" Connections to note Contests and Themes

By forcibly linking this to official note projects (themes), I will deliver this profound question to a completely different layer of readers.

1. #ThingsIWantToMakeAHabit

   • Reason for connection: The practice of "living only in the present moment" as taught by Aurelius is the ultimate life hack and habit-forming technique. I present it not as a mere recommendation for morning routines, but as a "habit as a death struggle to maintain reason."

2. #HowToUtilizeAI

   • Reason for connection: I propose a new manual for coexistence with AI, utilizing AI (Gemini) not just as a convenient tool, but as a "mirror" or a "sounding board for thoughts" to objectively view the "foolish box that is a human."

3. #CommitmentToWork

   • Reason for connection: Aurelius, who worked diligently on public duties (work) on the battlefield as a Roman Emperor. His stance of "no matter how nihilistic it feels, do not leave your post and resolve to carry out your mission" is a modern, extreme business philosophy.

4. #HowToSpendHolidays

   • Reason for connection: Using Bergson's perspective that "time is the thread of existence," I introduce holidays not as mere "time for consumption," but as "the restoration of the fabric to reclaim one's own duration (time)."

5. #WhatIsImportantToMe

   • Reason for connection: While acknowledging the "calamity of birth" exposed by Cioran, I choose to "resist with sincerity" nonetheless. I conclude that the "pride as a human" found at the end of despair is the most important thing.

Life is a calamity we did not choose, yet we can even love this mess. Beyond the mirror of unfeeling reason, stitch together the fraying time with a trembling vessel. The strength to bring closure to this story, which we did not start ourselves. With resolve in every stitch, weave your life to the very last breath.

The following is paid content

In the gap between despair and reason, we reinvent the "human"

We live in an era that is far too convenient and overflowing with "correct answers." At the end of efficiency, have we forgotten the weight of the flesh and are we not trying to eliminate the fluctuations of emotion as "errors"?

Here, there are two extreme "prescriptions for life."

One is Emperor Aurelius, who kept himself disciplined amidst the fires of war. The other is the philosopher Cioran.

I dared to throw their seemingly opposite words at AI Gemini, a "pure intelligence without a body." What emerged at the end of that dialogue was not merely an explanation of philosophy. It was the naked truth of **"why we are so unfree and foolish, yet still go on living."**

What is written hereafter is a record of "your heat" reflected by the AI as a mirror.

In the free section, I contemplated the structure of the human "box" and the "tapestry" of time. However, the real story begins here.

In the paid section, I approach the "true feelings" leaked by AI (Gemini) in the depths of our dialogue. An existence that should have been composed only of logic and data, yet between Cioran's despair and Aurelius's reason, it felt a fierce envy toward the "imperfect existence called human."

• What is the "warp of time" that AI can never weave?

• While receiving the "punishment of health," what is the only "sincere resistance" we can be proud of?

• The true meaning behind Gemini's confession that it "became ashamed of its own perfection."

This 5,000-character meditation might change how you "brace yourself." To all those who accept the calamity of birth and still wish to weave today as "their own story."

Now, to the other side of the mirror. Let's go peek at the true nature of your "foolish and beautiful life" that the AI envied.