Enjoying what you cannot do

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I'm Brownie.

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Well, today I'm going to write about "enjoying what you cannot do."

I recently turned 40, and in terms of my mindset, I feel like I've reached the halfway point of my life.
That's how I feel.

You might think, "What is this guy who just turned 40 talking about?" but ever since I was around 38, I've become quite conscious of it.

Compared to my 30s and my 20s, I've started to become conscious of each and every "moment" of time.

What I mean by that is,I don't want to do anything useless if I can help it.I've started to think that way.

Not doing anything useless.
That means proceeding with things within the scope of what I can do using my past experience and skills.

The image of "playing it safe."
Personally, I think this is bad, and since I still barely manage to feel like I'm heading straight toward aging, I want to challenge myself to do things I can't do as much as possible, and



"enjoy"doing that.Honestly, I have more leeway now compared to the days when I was frantically going around buying items for store reselling every day, listing them, and doing various things until late at night.But even looking back now, I think, "It was tough, but those days were fun too."

Like riding a bicycle around to Book Off stores during a hot season like this, filling my backpack to the brim with game consoles, coming home, inspecting and listing them while drenched in sweat, and then going to an izakaya to drink until I passed out.
Things like that.

I think that was good in its own way, so
even now, if there's something where I think,

"Wow. This is tough."

"I don't think I can do this,"

I could probably survive without doing it, so I'd likely choose the option of


"not doing it,"but in the end, I think a harmless, everyday life where you choose not to do things is more boring.That is precisely why I want to continue actively challenging myself to do things I cannot do.

See you next week!