🌳 Spiritual Monologue: To You Who Have Tried Too Hard

“I am truly sorry.”

—Why, you might ask, am I suddenly apologizing?

It is because what I am about to say is
“an extremely one-sided negation.”

I
have been writing articles about things like multifaceted perspectives,
which are as follows:

I talked about how
changing your viewpoint changes how you perceive things.

Despite writing such things,
“what follows is a one-sided negation.”

It is not a massacre.
I just wanted to say it
in the style of “Jones the Dismantler.”

Please rest assured that I will not follow this up by saying,
“You just need to sit there and scream.”
(My apologies to those who don't know the reference 💦)

Citation: HUNTER×HUNTER, Volume 3, Chapter 21

Shi-ren (Trial/Ordeal)

To strictly test the firmness of one's faith, resolve, or ability.
Also, the suffering experienced during such times.
“Undergo a severe trial,” “Endure an ordeal.”

Citation: Weblio Dictionary

What follows is a one-sided negation.

A trial?
You don't need one anymore.

You all,
how much have you been trying?
How much longer do you intend to keep trying?

…Are you saying that I don't understand?
It's a tough world just to live in, isn't it?
How much trouble do you go through just to eat a meal?

Even though that is treated as “normal,”
and in truth, that alone is something precious,
you are thanked by no one,
you kill your heart,
for someone else, for something else, for the sake of making a living.

How much more do you intend to try?
You have already tried enough, haven't you?

So let's stop setting up trials for ourselves…

“This isn't good enough,”
“I must do something meaningful for the future,”
“I must contribute more to the world,”
“I must work harder,”
“More, more, more…”

You don't have to overcome anything anymore.
You are fine just as you are.

Since you have already worked hard enough,

please acknowledge yourself.
Please reward yourself.
Please take care of yourself.
Please be kind to yourself.

Tell yourself, 'You've done enough.'
Please make sure to say that to yourself.

What you need to do is

just
carefully handle what is right in front of you, what you can do now.

That is all you need to do.

Please quietly face your heart.

I dedicate this to you who have made it this far.

Trials...
are no longer necessary.