Nono's Diary: 'Hey, Siri!'

Since I have a big body, I thought I had a big butt... but the other day at school, a first-grade boy poked me with a broom, and I thought, 'Oh, he must think I have a nice butt'... but it turns out I actually didn't have much of a butt at all. I'm Nono Nono.

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#EnjoyingGreetings

July 21 (Mon, Holiday)
Maybe because I had such a fun and cathartic time at yesterday's psychology seminar social gathering, I woke up feeling refreshed. I went out for lunch while getting the car inspected. It was hot... but the little demon wanted fried rice... and there was only a 'lekei' ramen shop nearby... I wanted to eat cold noodles, but they didn't have any, so at the age of 37, I made my debut with tsukemen (cold dipping noodles). I had an image that tsukemen was much greasier, but it wasn't that greasy at all, and the bonito flavor was really effective and delicious.
At the dealership, I shared my sadness with the representative that the CX-5 diesel model is being discontinued. If I want a diesel of a similar size next time... it would be the CX-60, and the price would jump by about a million yen... *sob*.
After it cooled down a bit in the evening, I played with water in the garden with the little demon. We used magnetic, unbreakable water balloons and a water gun that doesn't hurt. Even without setting up a pool, we enjoyed two hours of cool fun.

July 22 (Tue)
I went to a shapewear salon through a friend's recommendation.
Since it's summer vacation, I brought the little demon along. It was the little demon's first time in Shinsaibashi. My friend also brought her daughter, and since they are kindergarten classmates, they played together, and the little demon seemed to have a good time.
I was taken to a fitting room with full-length mirrors on the sides and front, and I had to face my reality; I wanted to close my eyes so badly. The staff helped me put on the undergarments while correcting my shape.
At the stage of putting on the lower body shapewear, I was told, 'Please look at your hips (now),' so I turned my head to the side with a creak... and saw that compared to my whole body, I had a butt that didn't stick out much at all.
...Or rather, I had no butt.
Huh? My butt...?
Hey? Butt...?
Butt...?
Hey Siri.........

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The staff even smiled and said, 'Ma'am, you have a small butt.'
I felt like I finally understood why, when I gave birth, even after inserting a balloon and using labor-inducing drugs for five days, the 3700g little demon wouldn't come out.
It was such a shock that until I went to sleep at night, I kept thinking about my butt every chance I got.
I mean, is it really okay to write 'butt, butt' directly on Note?

#MustBeOutOfMyMind

July 23 (Wed)
I just thought, 'Well, whatever, screw it!' and let go.

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#NotAitoYo

Since last month, I've been feeling stifled and anxious about the psychology seminar I've been taking. I had been looking forward to taking this seminar for a year. Once it started, I fell into my bad habit of 'If I'm going to do it, I have to get results!' and 'I'm going to be reborn! Hmph!'—I was pushing myself too hard and making things difficult for myself. I was forcing myself to vent about psychology, strictly sticking to a diet, thinking I had to do this and that, but for some reason, my mind and body couldn't keep up, and lately, every day felt uninteresting and not fun... Through a message sent by a seminar classmate yesterday, I realized that I was pushing myself too hard, overthinking, and leaving my emotions behind. Before thinking about what I 'have to' do, I decided to give myself permission to do what I find fun right now. I decided to pile up 'fun' things and regain my emotions.
First, to make myself feel better quickly, I decided to eat something delicious! So today, I went to a nearby cafe with the little demon. We had a fun time together. I'll continue my diet in the mornings and evenings, but I decided that for lunch, I'll eat what I like for the sake of my mental health.
Once I let go like that, it's amazing! Today, the text and information coming in from books, the internet, and social media, and the things happening right in front of me, felt like they were really soaking into me. I had been in a state of emotional numbness for the past few weeks.
Today was a day where I could feel happiness.

July 24 (Thu)
Today, too, I had lunch with the little demon. It was a takoyaki shop run by the mother of one of the little demon's former kindergarten classmates. After walking for about 10 minutes in the sweltering heat, I stuffed my face with piping hot takoyaki. Delicious. After that, I also ordered a freezing cold ice monaka. Delicious. Delicious food is the seed of happiness.
From the evening, the little demon had swimming lessons. Since we are traveling tomorrow, we moved it up by one day. It was the little demon's first swimming test. Even just watching from above, I could feel how terrified the little demon was. Even though the Onino family, including me, is a family that can swim... (what even is a 'family that can swim'?). The first patch the little demon got was for the lowest level. The one for being able to wash your face. Watching the little demon, I can't imagine at all if they will get better from here. But, get better, and once you can swim, it'll be fun.
Every day, I watch the little demon study for a few dozen minutes at home, the little demon plays alone while I do housework, and in between, we go out for lunch or go to lessons. Since I let go yesterday, I feel like I'm having good days with a nice rhythm... (who am I?), so I'm satisfied, satisfied.

July 25 (Fri)
The annual summer trip to Arima!!
Without doing any sightseeing, we went straight to the hotel from the morning and swam in the hotel pool for hours. We usually go on weekends, but this year we tried Friday and Saturday, and it was empty and very easy to swim in!! Swimming vertically and horizontally in the pool, doing crawl, breaststroke, backstroke, diving... I swam until I couldn't anymore. Thanks to the last month of swimming lessons, the little demon was fine even in a pool where they couldn't touch the bottom, as long as they had a float, and they were bobbing along comfortably at their own pace.
Because it was empty and I could swim so much, after 4 hours I was exhausted, and my legs felt heavy and tired. Stamina... Muscle strength... Butt... (irrelevant). While soaking in the hot spring, I massaged my legs. In the evening, we relaxed in the room. Dinner was an all-you-can-eat Chinese buffet. Relaxed and elegant. I felt like a wealthy lady.

July 26 (Sat)
Hiri-hiri dance, hiri-hiri dance...♪
Siri-siri dance, siri-siri dance...♪

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#MustBeOutOfMyMind
#YeahICantBeHappyAboutThis

Even though I should have applied sunscreen thoroughly yesterday, maybe there were uneven spots, or maybe I actually got a light tan, or maybe the sunscreen didn't agree with me... my arms and face are stinging. Especially my face; I focused too much on my freckled cheeks and neglected my nose, so I ended up looking like an out-of-season Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer. To think that the sun could make a tiny human on a planet so far away sting this much, the power of the sun is truly amazing... I feel it deeply.
After returning home, I took a nap with the little demon. We both should have slept well last night, but the bed we are used to sleeping in is the best; we slept a ton and recovered from yesterday's pool fatigue.

July 27 (Sun)
From the morning, news of my 'oshi' (favorite celebrity) getting married came out, and it took my breath away. I wonder if women around the world felt like this during the 'Fukuyama loss'... I ponder.
That said, today is star-reading day. I pulled myself together and went out. I accepted the request casually and read it casually at first, but it led to a deep conversation. What I aim for in star reading is not predicting the future, but healing the client. It was a session that made me realize once again that it takes considerable resolve to do 'star reading that heals people.' This is no time to be floating around, happy or sad about the marriage news of my favorite (I'll still support them, though), I don't need to rush, but I need to become more of an adult and build up my strength both mentally and physically... I felt that strongly.
From the evening, I went to the town's summer festival with the little demon's friend and their parent. It was the little demon's first yukata. I'm not good at arranging hair, but I did my best despite that. Even though it was evening, it was still hot, and the adults were exhausted, but it seemed like a good memory for the children, so I'm glad.

Summary
I think it was a deep week both mentally and physically. It was a week where I looked closely at my own inner self. I hope to continue with this introspection, venting, and taking care of my own mood...
And, above all, Siri. The shock of having no Siri was so strong (it's burned into my mind along with the memory of the image reflected in the mirror), that since Tuesday, I've been thinking about Siri every day. Like, 'I don't have a Siri.' No... it's totally fine if I don't, but my misconception of nearly 30 years was overturned, and I was incredibly surprised...


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