The fact that we finally met

To be upfront, I am terrible with people. If I go out to eat with someone, I immediately feel unwell afterward, and that includes my own parents. My body unconsciously goes into a defensive mode. It is probably due to trauma from my family environment, but that is a long story...

Even so, there was someone I wanted to meet.

That person is Miwa Yutani.
I have wanted to meet her for a long time. If I recall correctly, I think I was invited into the world of
#WhatAreYouTalkingAbout
because I used Miwa-san's "Min-Photo" as a featured image. It brings back memories... I got hooked on the Back Alley Monsters, didn't I? 🥹
I changed my previous account, so it is no longer there, and I cannot be entirely sure.

The reason I am drawn to Miwa-san is that when I was in the first grade at Katsuta Elementary School in Yokohama (which has since closed), my teacher was named Shimizu-sensei, and she was just so kind. I loved that teacher so much, and I recently thought that perhaps I am projecting Shimizu-sensei onto Miwa Yutani. Shimizu-sensei went on maternity leave soon after, so she was not my homeroom teacher for the whole year. But I kept thinking about her for a long time. Maybe I was just looking for the image of a kind teacher.

The more I got to know Miwa-san, the more I came to love her.
And so, on March 29th, which could be called the third time's the charm, we were finally able to meet.
(´;ω;｀) So moving!

As expected, I was so nervous I couldn't even eat lunch.
But, I was prepared with my camera tripod!
I was ready to do a Stand.fm live while waiting at the bus stop!
I managed to capture our moving meeting!

“So, shall we go to the sea?”
It was like, “Let’s go~”

I was so happy! We went on a date to the sea! We took pictures too! Wearing sunglasses (lol)

I received coffee from tabby's coffee roaster, and I even got to brew it! 🥹
It was delicious!

On Miwa-san's Stand.fm, the Shinobunger group had everyone except the leader present for a live stream, with Sakichi-san, Kotaro? Kiyoshi? I forgot the rest... ( ´艸｀) Goro? Rimo-san. We laughed and laughed.

After that, we took a short break, I practiced the guitar, and I performed a song I wanted to gift to Miwa-san. I made Miwa-san cry.

To the bus stop,

holding hands,

I saw her off. (lol)
Goodbye bus 🚌👋

In the end, I did get a headache... but I tried the TFT tapping technique I learned in counseling, just as the psychologist told me to. Then, it gradually eased up. After resting a bit, I felt well enough to actually type this out. I have many things I want to overcome, but the thought that I might be able to conquer my fear of people made me very happy. I realized that not giving up is important, so maybe I grew a little? 🤭

I was just so full of gratitude that you really came, Miwa-san!!

It's a happy morning!

#WhatAreYouTalkingAbout
#HappyMorning
#MiwaYutaniSan
#Growth