Digging and Writing It Down [50th Article]

A self-introduction of "the current me."

What I am writing is
a little different from my initial plans.

Or rather, quite different.

I thought I would take stock of my life while providing useful information for someone,
but before I knew it,

I realized that
I am only writing what I want to write, as the mood strikes me.

But personally, I am living a very fulfilling life every day.
Thanks to note.

At first, I tried to write about things I could write about.

• Single mother

• Accounting, general affairs, human resources

• FP Level 2

• Real Estate Notary

• Stock investment

These are the items that were at the forefront.

But when I actually tried writing,
I wanted to write so much that
my thoughts and fingers wouldn't stop, and I was

• Someone who was carrying loneliness

• Someone who didn't understand their own emotions

• Someone who wants to reinterpret the past and gain insights

• Someone who is trying to forgive themselves for hating others

• Someone who is going to find the self they left behind

• Someone who keeps company with such a self

I thought it was appropriate to introduce myself as someone who writes things like this.
Besides that,

Also,

Someone who digs into discomfort.

What is the true meaning of those words?
What was it that bothered me?

Initially, I positioned myself as someone in the middle of rebuilding their life,

but as I wrote on note every day, I became someone who transcribes the self that I hadn't been able to put into words before.

That, too, is part of rebuilding my life.
Or perhaps it is the core of it.

I wanted to write about things like 'Real Estate Notary study methods!' or 'Debt collection!', but I can't write how-tos well.
I realized that there are already people who write about them more clearly than I do.

Either way, when I write some kind of text, I end up revealing myself.

'And, what did I think?'
I want to dig into it and write it down, one by one.

My writing,
where the content and the tone
differ depending on my mood that day
and my realizations that day.

'The Mysterious Ex-Husband Series'
'Things I Tried'
'Realizations'
'Child-rearing'
'Investment'

Facing myself through these things,
trying to write about the world as seen through my own glasses.

Honestly, those who clicked on my investment-related articles looking for 'useful investment information' must have thought, 'This is just an investment essay with no information in it.' (Too bad for you)

• Tracing (thought)

• Seeing (observation)

• Conveying (connection)

• Leaving behind (memory)

• Believing (emotion)

Think → Do → Think

Tracing the outline of myself and
reclaiming the sensation of being alive in these hands

The conclusion of that is
that action is something only I can do

I have reached that level of conviction.

Today, another piece of writing was born,
I'm not sure if it's a self-introduction or just me talking to myself,
it's hard to tell which.

Thank you for always reading.
To everyone who has drifted to this place.

The existence of note,
the encounters in this place,
being able to trace the words of everyone I've met,
makes me happy.

Writing
and reading
are both joys for me.

Perhaps it is because I feel the warmth of a 'person' beyond the text.

Even a single comment like 'I read it!' makes me happy. Please feel free to leave one♪