[Project] I thought my way of thinking had changed a little recently.

Topic time

"Something that has changed my way of thinking recently."

When I saw this topic, I was a little troubled at first.

To be honest, the moment I tried to look for "something that changed," I felt a bit uneasy.
(A dog's ears pricked up.)

People tend to choose events that make them feel like they have grown.

The moment you choose, that story becomes just a little more convenient.

True change doesn't line up so neatly. It is much more common to look back later and realize, "Ah, I had changed at that time."

That is why this piece, while it seems like a story about "something that changed," is probably a little different.

I have a habit from a long time ago.
I spent a long time in the medical field.

It was a job observing people's conditions, regardless of age.

What I acquired there was a habit from a stage probably before "diagnosis."

You must not look at the person in front of you according to your own preconceptions. If you decide in advance that they are "seriously ill," your eyes become clouded.

First, look at what is happening in front of you exactly as it is. Do not just pick out the findings you want to see.
Rather, keep the facts you don't want to see.

Because the things you don't want to see can sometimes have meaning later.
(The movement of the dog's nose stopped. It stopped sniffing and just left it there.)

Inconvenient numbers and discomfort that cannot be explained well should be left as they are without being erased.

This is not a matter of kindness or ethics.
It is a more materialistic matter of measurement accuracy.

If you only look at what you want to see, your observations will be distorted. Correct judgments cannot come from distorted observations.

It is just that.
For a long time, I thought this was a habit only for work.

But recently, I realized something.

This habit has been operating all the time, even away from work.
For example, when reading people's writing.

I don't read articles based on the number of likes or followers. What catches my eye first is the sense of discomfort, like "What is this person?" What is this phrasing?

Where does this wavering come from?
I look at the numbers later as secondary variables to confirm that discomfort.

That is why I don't start with popular people. I usually start from the point where I think, "This guy is a bit strange."
It's not just writing.

In long dialogues with AI, in casual conversations with friends, and in time spent with children, I notice I am doing the same thing.

Do not rush to a conclusion. Do not fold it up halfway.
Leave the moments of wavering, the moments of returning, and the time when nothing happened, without erasing them.
(The dog's body stiffens for just a moment. By not moving, it is watching.)
Instead of summarizing a person into a single photograph by saying, 'This person is this kind of person,' leave them as they are in the flow of time.

Just to be clear, this is not about analyzing people. I don't want to diagnose anyone either. It's just that my eyes happen to move that way on their own.

And here is the part that makes me laugh a little myself.
The things I 'left without erasing' in that way kept piling up. When you leave things behind, you naturally want to organize them. When you organize them, the items increase, as you think, 'Oh, I need this perspective too.' By the time I noticed, what I intended to be just a notepad had become an overly complicated 'observation tool'.
I didn't draw up a blueprint from the beginning. It's the opposite, actually. Only the columns that became necessary increased. Only the items that became necessary increased. It's closer to something that accumulated rather than something that was designed. Like geological strata, it grew thicker as much as I observed.

Writing this far, it finally made sense.
It wasn't that my way of thinking had changed recently.
I had been doing the same thing for a long time.

Whether in the ICU, at a hospice, in conversations with friends, when reading text, or talking to AI. Even though the subjects are all different, what I was doing was always the same.

Do not fold it up halfway. Leave the process. Do not look only at what you want to see.

It wasn't me that changed. It was just that a habit I'd had for a long time had been there all along.

That's why I think the several things I had created before I knew it weren't separate projects. They were all branches growing from the same single habit.

The fact that my way of thinking changed recently.
I started writing thinking that.
But what remained at the end wasn't that it had changed.

The observation habit I had held since long ago was operating with the same structure in my work, my creative activities, and my dialogue with AI.
What finally changed recently was—that I became able to see that structure myself.
(The dog's tail gave a single, soft wag.)

🐾 Afterword

Having finished writing this piece, there is one thing I understand.
It wasn't that my way of thinking changed. It was just that my observation habit, which had been continuing for a long time, finally got a name.
While I was trying to make that habit into a form anyone could handle—before I knew it, an OS had been built inside Notion.
"Creator State Shift OS".

I leave articles not as finished products, but as a single frame in time. It is a tool to observe a person's changes, including the moments they wavered, the moments they returned, and the moments they broke through. This article, too, will become one of those frames.

There is one thing I am particular about with this OS. Many analyses look at people from 'results' like likes or followers.

Conversely, I first observe the changes, and treat the numbers assecondary variablesto verify them. That's why the first thing that catches my eye is not someone who is selling well. 'What is this person?'

—It starts from that sense of discomfort.

Of course, I cannot explain it all in one article.
Next time, I will follow how that 'habit' became an OS without using technical jargon.

If you are curious about the continuation of today's story, please join me next time.

(The dog stopped looking for 'what changed.' Instead, it began to follow the scent of the 'habit.' And it already knows that there is a continuation beyond the scent.)