What does it mean to 'support' someone?

Since there is a call for submissions about talking about your love for your 'oshi' (someone you support/stan),
I thought once again about what this recently popular term 'oshi' actually means...

Oshi = Myself

Honestly, I have never been obsessed with anything.
I do have things I like, you know?
Traveling, golf, movies, and so on.
There are many things I love.
But,
I can't go as far as to 'support' them.
Becoming incredibly knowledgeable,
always checking when merchandise comes out, or things like that—
I just can't do that.

Therefore, I respect people who can support something.
Idols, animals, people close to them, actors, singers, anime...
There must be many different kinds of 'oshi'.
I believe that feelings like wanting to know about the object of your support or wanting to cheer them on
must add color to your life.
How nice, I wish I had something like that.
Something I could be obsessed with. I want that. I'm truly envious.

The only thing I 'support' as such is,
myself.
I spend money on myself, and
I am very sensitive to things that satisfy me.

If I write something like this,
people might think, 'Well, obviously,' or
they might think I'm so narcissistic
(is that an outdated term?) but
honestly, if you can't love yourself, you can't love others, right?

Negativity is the root of all evil.

In the past, I didn't really like myself.
I wasn't very good at studying,
I didn't really achieve much in my lessons,
and I wasn't particularly beautiful.
Above all, even though all of that was due to my own lack of effort,
I would resent my environment, resent the people around me,
and even resent the things I loved and continued to do.
I didn't show it much on the outside at the time, but
negative thoughts would spin and spin, making it hard to sleep at night,
and I would worry, 'Ah, I'm such a useless person.'
Fortunately, I would eventually fall asleep and be full of energy during the day,
so I managed to avoid becoming a shut-in or refusing to go to school.

It's not just about becoming positive, but becoming positive in order to love yourself.

In the end, I think this was also
a result of not being able to 'support' myself.

When I was a university student, I left my parents' home and
had the opportunity to live in an environment with many foreigners.
It was so stimulating, and I spent every day happily.

My foreign friends would often talk passionately and in detail about their own countries and roots. I felt that these people must be living while cherishing themselves, and that's why they shine and achieve results even in a foreign land.
It was a vague impression, but I felt it.
Since that time, I learned to love myself.

Specifically,
・Praise myself even for the simplest things when I get them done
　→I did the laundry! I cleaned up!
　　I worked hard for a week! I'm amazing!
　　I'm the most amazing person in the world!
・Take everything positively
　→I was cautioned
　　　＝They think I'm someone worth cautioning!
　　I had work left over
　　　＝I was able to prioritize urgent tasks and handle them properly!
・If I don't like something, I don't like it. Don't push yourself.
　→I'm not in the mood to tidy up today. I'll just do it tomorrow.
　　Cooking in a cramped kitchen is impossible!
　　In that case, I'll just cook when I want to, and
　　basically, buying food or eating out is fine.
Something like this.

Here is a haiku

The only one I support is, of course, myself
Acknowledging this, I forge ahead into the rough seas of the world

It's okay to have strong self-love, isn't it?
It's okay if you can't find someone else to support, isn't it?
Just by acknowledging that, surely
you can survive in this rough world.

Everyone, it's getting colder (not that it matters),
so love yourself even more,
love the allies around you,
and praise yourself a lot!
Please have an autumn like that.