Singing Pua Lililehua with the feeling just being there

There is one more song I am working on.

"Pua Lililehua".

Unlike Lahainaluna, this song feels different; it is more delicate, softer, and has an atmosphere that feels like gently handing over love.

I looked up the meaning of the lyrics, understood the background, and intellectually grasped what kind of song it is.

But the version of myself that appeared in the last practice was the same as before.

I end up singing it too powerfully.

I end up trying to project it too firmly.

I end up trying to sing it too properly.

Ah, I realized I am still at this stage.

But I also think that realizing this is a huge step forward.

What I want to express in this song is not strength, but

gentleness,
softness,
and a love that seems to seep out.

Rather than trying to convey something to someone, it is a state where the feeling is simply there.

That is why the goal of the song is

not to "deliver," but to "seep."

Not a voice pushed forward, but a voice that naturally spreads from within.

Not a voice made to resonate through effort, but a voice that seems to dissolve into the air before you even notice it.

For that purpose, the practice I am doing now is

first, to not try to produce a voice.

Let the breath flow. In that flow, place just a little bit of sound.

A voice like the extension of a sigh.

And, I don't manufacture emotions either.

Instead of trying to convey something,
I sing in a state of just 'being there'.

I still find myself putting in too much effort, but

even so,
I notice it, return to center, and try again.

I hope that in this repetition,
I can change little by little.

If Lahainaluna is a 'song that becomes air',

then Pua Lililehua is
a 'song where feelings seep through'.

While properly feeling this difference within myself,
I want to spend the time leading up to the performance.