[Self-Introduction] You can't be a nurse on platitudes alone
"If you're going to say that much, why don't you take care of them at home?"
I have thought that before.
Of course, I didn't say it out loud.
Nice to meet you.
I am kai | Nurse 21.
As a nurse, I have experience primarily in psychiatry, as well as in the operating room and internal medicine.
There were times when I served as a head nurse or a nursing manager.
I have also supervised clinical practice and mentored junior staff.
Writing it like this, I might seem like a composed nurse.
Always calm, kind to juniors, and polite to patients.
But in reality, I haven't always worked while thinking only such noble thoughts.
In my heart, I have thought it many times
"I finally got to take a break, too, you know."
"Don't you think you can just tell me again?"
"Does that really have to be right now?"
"Am I being thought of as an old nuisance?"
I have thought things like that in my heart many times.
Of course, I don't say them out loud.
There is no way I could.
Because I am a nurse.
Because I am a head nurse.
Because I was a nursing manager.
Because I was in a position to mentor others.
There are words I have swallowed down like that.
You can't work on platitudes alone
I don't mean to deny the value of platitudes.
Kindness and a sense of responsibility are necessary in nursing.
But,the workplace is not light enough to work on platitudes alone.
Days when I was exhausted from choosing my words too carefully when dealing with families.
Days when I replayed how I spoke to a junior staff member over and over after correcting them.
Days when I acted normal in front of patients, only to fall silent in the breakroom.
Days when I couldn't get work out of my head even after finishing a night shift.
I have spent many such days.
I am writing the honest feelings of nurses in their 40s and 50s
In this note, I am writing about the honest feelings I have swallowed at work.
Things I couldn't tell patients.
Things I couldn't tell my family.
Things I couldn't tell my juniors, my superiors, or my colleagues.
This is not a story about a perfect nurse.
Still, these are the honest feelings of one nurse who has worked until today.
When you reach your 40s and 50s as a nurse, there are hardships different from when you were young.
Night shifts become harder.
Anxieties about physical stamina emerge.
I struggle with whether to speak up or stay silent when mentoring juniors.
I get caught in the middle in positions of management or as a head nurse.
Dealing with families wears down my heart.
Even so, I cannot simply quit.
I will write about that atmosphere in the workplace.
I also write about psychiatric nursing and nursing research
I also write about psychiatric nursing.
Nursing that is hard to see through simple procedures and examinations alone.
Time that looks like doing nothing.
The sense of distance with patients.
The fascination of psychiatric nursing that I want to convey to young staff.
I write about those things from my own experience as well.
I also write articles for nursing research, clinical practice, and nursing students.
Things I struggled with in the field.
Things I felt while mentoring.
Situations where hands stop during research or documentation.
I will put those things into words as clearly as possible.
To those who are hanging in there in the field just like me
Nurses are not all strong people.
They are not all kind people either.
There are days when we have no room to spare.
There are days when we get angry.
There are days when we want to run away.
Even so, we somehow manage to stand in the workplace.
In this note, I will write about such honest feelings of nurses.
I would be happy if those who are hanging in there in the field just like me could think,
"Oh, I wasn't the only one."
I would be happy if you would come and read the articles that interest you if you'd like.
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To those who have come to read for the first time.
I have compiled the honest feelings I have swallowed at work, as well as topics on psychiatric nursing, nursing research, and clinical practice, into magazines by theme.
I would be happy if you would come and read from the magazines that interest you.
・Honest feelings of nurses in their 40s and 50s
・Stories about psychiatric nursing
・Thoughts on head nurses and management positions
・How to proceed with nursing research and case studies
・Tips for nursing students and clinical practice
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