To Return to the "3% Self"

Not long after I started note, I wrote an article titled
Writing at '3%'
.

The "3%" I refer to here is "45 minutes" out of a 24-hour day.
It had been 10 days since I started note, and I had just gotten used to finishing my writing within those 45 minutes in the morning.

・How I use my "3%" of the day has changed
・Excluding work and sleep, "3%" actually carries a lot of weight

I reflected on things like these and pondered "what is important for continuing for a long time."

I suddenly looked back at a past article.
The reason is that I felt it was necessary for me now to return to my "beginner's mind," or in other words, to that "3%."

The act of writing itself is not painful at all.
I have over 60 draft notes, and that number will increase even more once I transcribe the note mandala I wrote yesterday.
So, at least until those run out, I should be able to continue writing every day.

However, including both writing and reading other creators' articles, the time I spend on note reduces the time I have for reading books.
I've written something obvious, but in my case, if I can't find time to read books, my vocabulary and energy seem to clearly dry up.
This is also something I only realized after I started writing continuously.

Until now, I had been placing more weight on the writing side.
When it became a long piece and I couldn't finish it within the 45 minutes in the morning, I would write during my lunch break or after returning home.
I also want to value my sleep, so there were days when I would be typing away until the very last minute before bed and then go straight to sleep.

But, no matter how much I "love to write."
There is no way I can continue writing like that for a long time.
In the first place, the "love of writing" that I have inside me is clearly something different from the act of writing with such a strained, tense feeling.

The other day, my head felt foggy from the morning.
Because I had been writing until right before bed the previous day, the poor quality of my sleep had a significant impact.
In addition, it was the time of year when the fiscal year changes, and it was a period when work was busier than usual.

Even so, the article I published that morning ended up being much longer than usual, but it was content that I had intended to write with great enthusiasm.

Regarding this note account, there is only one person among those I meet in real life who knows about it.
Since it happened to be a day I was meeting that person, I brought up the topic of the most recently published article and the proper nouns that appeared in it during our conversation.
However, the reaction I got back was not quite clicking.

Facing that reaction, while realizing "so this is what it means to have your heart broken," it finally hit home.
No matter how much time you spend and how much enthusiasm you put into writing, that has absolutely nothing to do with the people who read it.

Continuing and spending time are things I do because "I want to do them."
It is strange to get depressed after having expectations on my own and being betrayed on my own.

This is directed at myself, but now that work has settled down and I am feeling better, that is how I feel.

Thinking that it was the right time to rethink how to continue note in that way.
I remembered the "3%" I wrote about in the past.
(I'm glad I made a sitemap)

A guideline for writing sustainably without losing the fun and without sacrificing reading time.
Not asking for anything, not being arrogant, not having expectations, and continuing for my own sake.
It seems better to return to that for now.

I started writing this article by setting my smartphone timer to 45 minutes to realize "returning to my 3% self."

Even though I cannot necessarily stick to "3%" when I think about the editing I have to do from here on out.
I want to prioritize "continuing to have fun" as if I have returned to my beginner's mind.
That is why I have tried to put it into words.

#66DayWritingChallenge
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↑ I am fully prepared to continue having fun and finish the challenge💪

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