I cried at my son's acting; thank you for the happiness

My son played a role in a play.

Camera recording was prohibited on the day.

I have low vision and my eyesight is only about 0.01 to 0.02, so I cannot see well from a distance unless I use a camera to zoom in.

Some might think I should have asked for special permission, but I decided to consult and watch from the very front row because I didn't want to cause misunderstandings among the many other parents or make anyone feel distrustful, which would ruin their enjoyment of the day. We would receive a DVD later, so I made up my mind to watch my son as best as I could within my range of vision on the day.

However, I had been feeling so anxious for weeks that my stomach was in knots, and I was even having nightmares about it.

Only one parent could attend and cameras were not allowed; would I be able to watch him properly? Was this really okay?

I felt like I was going to be crushed by anxiety.

I felt guilty toward my son for thinking such things, and honestly, I had been having days where I felt emotionally drained.

So, on the day, I went 45 minutes before the start and sat right in the center of the very front row of the parent seating area.

Even if I couldn't see well, my son would surely find his mom.

I prayed in my heart.

I chatted with the person in the seat next to me until it started, which helped ease my tension a little.

Even though we were meeting for the first time, she was very kind, friendly, and wonderful, and I was happy to talk to her.

When acquaintances came by and spoke to me, I felt a sense of relief.

When the start time arrived, the lights went out and the children came out.

My son had a role with many scenes right from the beginning.

First, a girl sang a solo with a cute and beautiful voice.

Then, my son appeared and delivered his lines.

My son was playing his role with a very loud, clear, resonant, and confident voice.

I might be a doting parent, but his voice acting was wonderful.

Unfortunately, I could tell where my son was and that it was him, and I could see him moving, but I couldn't see his face very well.

That's what I thought until it started.

But... when I heard my son's cute, confident voice that resonated so well in his mom's ears, those feelings completely vanished.

Even though I'm a mom with hearing loss who struggles to understand speech, I didn't miss a single word of my son's lines; they all reached my ears from several meters away.

A powerful voice filled with emotion.

I was so incredibly happy.

Even though I couldn't see him, I could feel my son's voice acting, and I was crying steadily from that point on.

It wasn't just my son's energetic personality... perhaps he acted with such a clear, loud, confident, and resonant voice filled with emotion because he wanted to make sure his performance reached his mom, who has trouble seeing.

My son must have purely enjoyed giving that wonderful performance.

But,

I felt that perhaps his strong desire for it to reach his mom was what led to such a magnificent performance.

It wasn't just my son.

The performances of all the children in that play were wonderful, and their singing voices were cute, beautiful, and moving.

It was the same during his piano recital.

On days when I can feel my son's growth, I feel incredibly happy.

Anxiety, worries, sadness, and various negative emotions fade away, and my heart is filled.

Today, I realized that more than any counselor or any medicine, my son's existence and his growth are the nourishment for my heart.

To be honest, the six years since he was born have been a difficult six years.

However, my son has always been by my side, building our days together, and he has grown into such a wonderful boy who brings me so much happiness.

A day when I received happiness and courage. A day when I was able to tell my son, 'That was amazing! You were so cool! Thank you!'

On the day, I was entertained by his voice acting, but since I've already purchased the DVD and am set to receive it soon, I will watch it properly once it arrives.

I'll watch it with my son and be able to say 'That's amazing!!' many more times.

Being able to enjoy the voice acting on the day and then enjoying the performance again later means I get to enjoy the excitement and my child's growth twice over!

So, it wasn't that I was sad I couldn't see it on the day, but thanks to not being able to see it, I got to enjoy listening to his voice, and getting to experience the excitement and his growth twice—once on the day and once later—might just be the best thing ever!

Seeing everything on the day isn't the only thing that matters. That is my world.

I might just be a lucky person.

It became a happy memory where I was able to tell my son 'thank you' many times.