Current Thoughts

That only goodness is the truth, or
that only nothingness is the truth, or
that humans are beautiful, or
that humans are ugly.

I simply cannot think that way.

The world is far more contradictory.

Love is real.
But desire is also real.

Goodness certainly exists.
But humans easily betray it.

People are kind.
But they are also cruel.

Meaning exists.
But nothingness also exists.

I call this "true contradiction."

It is not fake because it is contradictory.
Rather, isn't contradiction the very essence of the world?

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Here, I feel a bit of empathy for Nietzsche, and a bit of discomfort.

Friedrich Nietzsche did not look away from the abyss.

In a world where God and the absolute had collapsed, he still said to live.

That sincerity is tremendous.

But it also seems as though he suffered a bit too much.

Because, was he not, in truth, a soul that sought the absolute?

That is why, when he could no longer fully believe in the absolute, he suffered until his mind tore.

On the other hand, I have thought from the beginning that "incompleteness is the structure of the world."

A perfect circle exists.
But one cannot reach perfection.

That is why the world becomes a spiral.

While remaining asymmetrical, I continue to try to approach a perfect circle.

It is an interdependence of circles and triangles.

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I am also not fond of Sophistic thought.

"Truth is relative. Just play the game well."

Certainly, that is also a reality.

However, that alone leaves the soul hollow.

In the end, I want to believe in humanity.

That is why I cannot live on nihilism alone.

But at the same time, I cannot live on platitudes alone.

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The "nothingness" in my philosophy does not mean "there is nothing."

To me, nothingness is:

"A state of quieting the noise of thought and holding true contradictions as they are."

Just quietly,

observing both the circle and the jagged edges.

Observing both symmetry and asymmetry.

The stillness for that purpose.

That is what nothingness is to me.

Because the world has been made of true contradictions from the very beginning.