Memories of Threatened Premature Labor and Voicyfes

When I suddenly start writing about something I've been wanting to write about someday,
I experienced threatened premature labor while pregnant with my second child.
I went to the hospital thinking something was wrong, and ended up being admitted,
and I regretted not sending my older child off with a bigger smile when they left for school.

At first, I wondered when I would be able to be discharged,
searching for things like "threatened premature labor discharge when,"
and reading through blogs of people who had been hospitalized.

In the end, my condition wasn't very good, and I was hospitalized for about two months.
Seeing my husband and older child's life together becoming more chaotic day by day over video calls, I wondered if it was really okay for me to just be lying here,
and whether I could actually give birth to a healthy baby after causing so much trouble...
I would mope in the middle of the night while staring at the glowing IV pole.

I had to stay in bed all day except for going to the bathroom,
so I read paper books and e-books,
but using my eyes so much with all that spare time was tiring.
That was when I was saved by the audio platform Voicy.

I listened to other audio content like Audible, too,
but I realized that a "voice reading a book" is completely different from a "voice speaking to you."
Since I couldn't see anyone due to being hospitalized during the COVID-19 pandemic and was just waiting for time to pass,
I think I felt the warmth of a human voice even more.

Even among that, the annual Voicyfes was different from regular broadcasts,
and the chemical reactions from the conversations between personalities were very interesting.
I remember how it helped ease my painful feelings, even if just while I was listening, by making me chuckle or by pausing the broadcast to think about things myself.

Now then. The other day, I read a book by Mr. Ogata, the president of Voicy.

I thought, "I see!" at this part.
The idea that even if the content isn't perfect, by focusing on the desire to give to the listener,
your lack of confidence will eventually stop bothering you... that talk,
it was very encouraging. I definitely want to put it into practice.