Gentle connections seen while returning to my inner self

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For the past week or two, I haven't been feeling very well.
I don't feel like I'm completely back to normal yet, but
I am spending my time getting things back in order little by little.

During this period, my interactions with people increased a bit, and
I also spent a lot of time reaching out to others myself.

That time was very enjoyable, and
my heart was moved naturally, but

without realizing it,
I feel like both my heart and body were moving more than I had anticipated.

Furthermore, we had a family trip,
and the flow of my consciousness being directed outward continued.

With the travel by car and the changes in environment,
perhaps my nerves were stimulated more than I had thought.

Even when I tried to move, I had a sense of being held back somewhere,
and a time continued where I couldn't move as smoothly as I had before.

But, rather than just seeing that state as a 'malady',
when I looked a little bit inside—

I have always been someone who
easily picks up on the air outside and the feelings of others, and

it seems I have a tendency to
naturally take in the pace and flow of those around me as well.

Because of that, without realizing it,
I might be pushing myself, thinking 'I can do a little more,' or

there are times when I only notice the brakes
after the space inside me has become scarce.

This feeling this time, rather than saying I was overdoing it,

the stimuli on the body side and what I was receiving as sensations overlapped,

and it feels like, having received and moved so much, my body entered a phase of readjustment afterward,

that is the kind of flow I feel it was.

Looking back like this,
the fact that I couldn't move wasn't that I had 'stopped' entirely, but

it might have been a natural transition
to return to my inner self once and get things in order.

So now, rather than trying to force myself forward,

While returning to my own senses, I tidy up in small ways and move only as much as I am able.

In that repetition,
I hope to gradually regain a rhythm that suits me.

I cherish that kind of pace🌿

Even the time when I couldn't move might have been
a necessary part of the flow.

While I feel the importance of moving outward,
I am realizing once again that this time spent tidying up the inside
is just as necessary.

In the flow of this time where I received so much,
there is one feeling that remained quietly.

Leave a little space, especially when things are fun.

I think I will gently set it aside so I don't forget it🌿

Thank you for reading this far.

I call this process of putting the feelings happening within me into words, like I did this time, a "round-trip delivery."

Instead of just accepting events that happened outside as they are, I bring them inside once,

and then return what I saw there back to the outside as words.

It is an image of gradually organizing my senses through that kind of back-and-forth.

By putting things into words,
the true nature of vague anxieties and fuzziness becomes visible,
and it becomes a trigger to break free from a state of "feeling somehow exhausted."

When I come to understand what is happening within me,
I find myself blaming myself less than necessary,
and I can naturally see how I should move next.

From a state of just feeling,
it changes into a "state that I can handle myself"—
that is the change that happens during this round trip.

If,

"I have a feeling I can't quite put into words."
"I feel tired somehow, but I don't know why."
"I want to organize what is happening inside me."

At times like that, perhaps I can offer a little help🌿

As a catalyst to quietly return to your inner self.

And just like this time,
while spending time returning to my inner self,

there were moments where I felt warmth
in the exchanges connected through words.

In the midst of that, please let me introduce here
a few of the beings I was gently allowed to touch🌿

Ai-san💗
I Counseling Room Therapist / Clinical Psychologist & Licensed Professional Psychologist, 16 years of support experience, over 2,000 people

Ai-san's words also seem to touch the inner self softly,
and as I read them, I have the feeling that my breathing gradually becomes deeper.

She has written many articles with reassuring words in the past,
and in every piece of writing, I feel a warmth as if she is gently placing a hand on me and saying, "It's okay."

Based on her experience as a clinical psychologist and licensed professional psychologist,
she delivers words that gently draw close to those who tend to blame themselves,

and from the fact that she has recently been recruiting for monitors,
I feel that she is opening up a space where one can actually experience peace, not just through words🌿

Manatsu / Totsutsu Minority Retsuden-san🐯

I feel that Manatsu-san is someone who can
naturally shape and deliver the desire to "make someone happy."

Within a light and approachable atmosphere,
there is a gentle gaze that finds and draws out people's charm,
and I have the impression that their presence warms up the space🌿

Previously, during Akane-chan's turn at the member introduction festival,
when I saw the image of Manatsu-san in a tiger costume,
I shaped the image that came to mind and sent it to her.

She has been using it as her icon...!
I felt a heart-fluttering warmth in that exchange as well💕

That she would use what I created in this way,
I am truly grateful and happy.

And thank you always for sending such thoughtful comments.
☺️🌿

Also, recently,
in my interactions with Hank Shuntana,
there has been a flow where short videos take shape sparked by comments,

and their light-footed initiative and
ability to naturally connect people were also impressive.🌿

I would also like to touch upon the presence of two people who are connected to Manatsu-san's flow here.🌿

Cosmic Rare Beast 🦄🌬️ Yuru Hero Akane-san

She is someone who takes the impulse of 'I want to try this' within herself and gives it form just as it is,
naturally drawing out the expressions of those around her,

and I feel that her free and playful worldview
has the power to gently open up the entire space.🌿

Hank Shuntana-san ✨

I feel that he is someone with the creativity and speed to expand on a single expression and turn ideas into reality one after another.

Within his playful ideas, there is a solid understanding of structure and technique,
and I have the impression that he creates high-quality work while having fun.

I felt that his lightness and ability to execute are what connect relationships and flows into reality all at once.🌿

Saitama no Urashigotonin-san ✨

In Saitama no Urashigotonin-san's article,
I was very happy to be able to participate in such an unexpected way,
such as having an image I created of Manatsu-san used, and appearing as an idol.☺️

He even secretly included my beloved cat (Mofu-chan),
and I couldn't help but chuckle at that playfulness.🌿

Saitama no Urashigotonin-san is someone who
expands a single event or connection into a story,
drawing the whole space into the fun,

and within that free and humorous expression,
I feel the warmth of how much he values connections with people.

I am once again grateful for being invited into the story in this way.☺️🌿

For being connected in this way,
once again, with feelings of gratitude🌿