[Self-Esteem, Illustrations, and the Magic That Saves the Heart] #AIIllustration #ImageGenerationAI #Nijijourney #ChatGPT #Gemini #Photoshop No.41

The weather is unstable, with heat and even hail.
This is the time of year when 'May sickness' spreads, but how is everyone doing?
Please take good care of your health.

Lazuli, the fairy who appeared last time, is back in GPT Image 2.0.
It draws with stunning resolution, but I wonder, is GPT Image 2.0 not good at rendering 'bokeh'?

It seems a bit more verification is needed.

1. Self-esteem and illustrations

(a) My unbalanced self-esteem

How do you all evaluate your own self-esteem?
It's different from how others evaluate you, and it's not something that can be evaluated absolutely, so I think it's difficult.

Actually, about a year ago, I was told that I have 'low self-esteem'.
The person who said it had self-esteem like a monster, and you wouldn't say that directly to someone who really has low self-esteem (usually...).

Nevertheless, it gave me an opportunity to think a little about self-esteem.

If anything, I sometimes use my courage to put out fires in flaming projects, so I thought, 'Maybe my self-esteem is high?'
But what I realized is that I wasn't able to do that from the beginning.

A long time ago, I happened to be entrusted with a flaming project by my boss, and I happened to be able to put it out...
As those experiences piled up, the scale of the projects gradually grew, leading to where I am now.

Conversely, I only write the bare minimum of comments on social media.
On note, writing comments is encouraged, but I don't.

The reason is, besides being socially awkward, it's because I've had sad experiences on social media many times in the past.

I realized that I had become quite unbalanced.

(b) That someone else's growth nurtures me

From the perspective of looking at the people around me.
It might be better to have slightly low self-esteem.
It might be imprudent, but it's easier to work with subordinates and bosses who have slightly lower self-esteem.

'Lift them up, get them to do it,' and 'praise them when they succeed,' and as you repeat that, they grow more and more.
Sometimes I get thanked, but it's actually me who is truly grateful.

It's because watching that growth, more than anything, raises my own self-esteem.

Looking back, I think the words 'you have low self-esteem' said to me a year ago were not wrong.

(c) The me from back then, brought back by AI illustrations

Changing the subject.
When I was a student, I loved drawing illustrations.

I sometimes used manuscript paper or sketchbooks, but I also doodled all over my lecture notes.
I drew my favorite anime characters over and over, dozens of times, perhaps even hundreds of times.

After I started working, I stopped drawing.
I wasn't at a level where I could continue it as a hobby.

Instead, I started photography.
Before I knew it, I had spent years taking photos just as I felt them.

What changed was after AI appeared.
I started AI thinking it was an extension of photography, but...

Thanks to this new magic called AI, the world of illustration that I had once given up on has become something I can draw "freely on the canvas" once again.

My recent favorites are the girl with long black hair and emerald green eyes, and the girl with long silver hair and amethyst-colored eyes.
I must not forget Lazuli, the fairy with lapis lazuli-colored eyes.

I think the time I spend giving shape to them is one of the factors that has boosted my self-esteem.

2. Summary

Besides AI, I have a few magic words.

For example, when working on a new project...

"Even if I fail, I won't die!"

The trust you lose from failing isn't that significant.
In fact, you gain more from failure.

For example, when going to see a client or a boss...

"I'm going to go get scolded now!"

If you anticipate the worst-case scenario, you won't be afraid of anything that happens.

For everyone, what boosts your self-esteem is different for each person.
There might be a trigger close by.
You might need someone's help.

But it is a fact that you can change, even if it's little by little.

To everyone who always sends warm 'likes' and 'comments,' and to all my followers.
I am truly grateful for the connection I have with all of you.

May you all be blessed by the spirits...

Thank you for your time.

■ What kind of person is Joe Tsukasa?

These are the magazines I am always indebted to.

◼️ Silver Hair Alliance

◼️ Gather, Dark Fantasy Lovers

◼️ Collaborative Magazine 'AL-LA'

◼️ [Mugi-ya] note x AI Utilization Promotion Magazine

◼️ Jet Black Absolute Territory

◼️ Leo's Coffee Shop

◼️ Growth Magazine Offering Kindness and Courage

◼️ Kyon and Everyone's 🌸 Free Magazine

◼️ Let's Create Together! Akari's Creative Magazine

◼️ Everyone and Minato's AI Illustration Exhibition

◼️ Growth Magazine: Be Kind to Yourself, Be Even Kinder to Others♪

◼️ Transmission

◼️ Magazine for Bonds and Growth Spun by Everyone

◼️ Collaborative Magazine 'Shade of the Tree Plaza🌱'

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