Writing for a lifetime. I had a catchphrase created for me

On April 11th, Sunou Honda posted this on X.

Wow, wow, wow, wow!!
I really want you to do this!!
I asked right away.

And here is the catchphrase they created for me.

One person, two people.
Living, writing.

And

Writing for a lifetime.

I already cried.
This is completely about me this time. I will talk about why I was so happy that I cried.

If this catchphrase resonates with you, I hope you will read on with a light heart.

One person, two people.

I was crying here. (Too early)

I have been writing fan fiction novels for a long time. Ultimately, I think novels are things you "write for your own loneliness." I have always been "one person."

But on note, I am not "alone".
The "one" has become "two." I am writing on note now for "you," who shares a similar pain to mine but does not want to let go of writing.

When I write novels, I am "alone."
When I write on note, I am "two."

Both are important. But I truly felt it, that yes, we are "two."
Snow-san made me realize that I, who only knew being "alone," had become "the two of us, you and me" at some point.

Living is writing.

I write about "writing," but "writing" is "living." ...I haven't really talked about this, but around the same time I had the catchphrase created, Maiton-san mentioned it in this way.

Hmm, those who get it, get it. Among my followers, there might be many who understand, even if they don't say it. That for me, "writing" is "living."

The reason I haven't touched on this is because it's a bit of a dark story. I'll keep it light, I'll keep it light.

I have bipolar disorder, so my ankles are firmly gripped by suicidal ideation. To put it plainly, ever since I started suffering from mental illness, I have always "wanted to die."

However, while discussing things with my husband during fertility treatment, I began to think, "I want to live a little longer with my husband," and "I want to live." And to do that, I had togive up on wanting childrenwhich would likely be a huge burden on my mind and body.

I stopped "wanting to die" with that much resolve.

And so, when I thought about what I would do for the rest of my life, it was, as expected, "I want to write," and that brings me to where I am now. That is why my "wanting to write" is "wanting to live."
As long as I am writing, I am living, and as long as I am living, I am writing.

I am writing about "writing," which is to say, "living."

The copy "Living is writing" expressed exactly that.

I will write for a lifetime.

You hid it in the vertical reading... no, it's not hidden anymore, this powerful sentence.

I am currently taking the time to clearly articulate things like "what it means to 'write for a lifetime'" and "what one must do to be able to say they have 'written for a lifetime'," and I am preparing for that.

I think the answer to the question "what is writing for a lifetime" will change as I gain life experience in my 30s, 40s, 50s... (or rather, it would be a problem if it didn't), but I decided to write because I think there are words I can only leave behind now, while I am still immature.

By articulating the answer to the question "what is writing for a lifetime," I, who have set "I want to write for a lifetime" as my theme, will be able to declare "I will write for a lifetime" with confidence.

I will write for a lifetime. Aiming to be someone who can truly say that, I will pursue the meaning of "writing for a lifetime."

With all that said, it was a catchphrase that stirred my emotions—making me cry, surprising me, and renewing my resolve. Even though it's my own catchphrase...

I will treasure it. Since I will likely be writing for a lifetime, it is a treasure for a lifetime.

Sunou-san, thank you so much!