I tend to get depressed in February. I'll accept it and do what I can.

I'm Ito Koumi, and I want to write for the rest of my life.

In early March of last year, I posted this tweet.

A few days before I got depressed and took a leave of absence from work in 2024.
I agree that writing novels is fun, but since I've had a lot of health issues since entering February again this year, it gave me a bit of a shock.

Come to think of it, in 2022, I intended to work at my previous job until the end of March, but my health was so poor that I had to move my resignation up to the end of February. (During this time, I couldn't even stand, so I commuted while pulling a carry cart with a seat on it.)

In February 2020, when I was undergoing training for my previous job, too.
Although the training itself was very healthy, I ended up comparing myself to those around me, lost track of whether I was doing my best or how I should be doing my best, and ended up with irregular bleeding from trying the wrong way.

Is it an 'unlucky month' rather than an 'unlucky year'?
That's how much something always happens in February.
I tend to get depressed. I get sick. My health falls apart.

First of all, it's probably just because it's cold.
Even though the days are getting longer, the amount of daylight in a day is still short.

There's a limit to how much you can warm your body.
No matter how much I heat the room or bundle up, I get cold from my extremities. There's no way to get warm.
I want to be in the bath all day long.

I suppose I should improve it through diet and exercise, but it's too cold to go buy groceries.
Even if I try to exercise, my health is so poor that I can only manage some stretching and squats at most. (I do at least that much.)

So, all that's left is...
to just get through it...

I get depressed and my health suffers in February.
I'll keep that in mind when planning my annual schedule.
I'll just accept the February blues to some extent. I won't struggle against it.

And thenI'll believe that I'll naturally feel better when it gets warmer!

I'll naturally feel better when it gets warmer.

I'll drill this into my head, and with the power of belief, I'll accept that my pace of activity will slow down during the cold season.

There are things you can keep building up even when it's cold.
Even if you're bedridden, 'writing' and 'reading' are easy to do if you use a smartphone.
(If you're depressed to the level where that's difficult, just sleep.)

I'll steadily build up 'writing' and 'reading' at my own pace in preparation for when it gets warmer.

I'll dream while I build things up.
I'll write down places I want to go or things I want to start when it gets warmer in a notebook and keep them in stock.

And then, when it finally gets warm, I'll take a big leap!

I hope I can do that.

The point was to understand the conditions under which you are prone to feeling unwell, simply accept it, do what you can, and focus on building up your strength. Please take care of yourselves, everyone!