I think I'm done with 'guts.' I'll just live as my flawed self, using my 'thesis' as a cheat sheet.

Hello, nice to meet you!

I'm a 'growth geek'.

I've finally decided to give note a try.

I'll be honest.

I am absolutely terrible at writing...

My grammar might be all over the place,

and it might be incredibly hard to read,

but I'd be happy if you could bear with me (lol).

Honestly, the idea of earning a million yen is such an impossible game that I just laughed.

The reason I started in the first place was,

because I saw 'How to earn a million on note' on YouTube!

Yes, I'm the ultimate fool. I'm the type who gets influenced way too easily.

However,

when I actually took a look at various creators' posts,

they were all so polished and elegant.

Even when people say things like 'Decide on a strong niche!' or 'Solve your readers' problems!'...

'...That's impossible, right? I don't have any knowledge. I've never done anything like that.' I realized that in a second and changed my direction (lol).

Even if a million yen is asking too much

I'd be happy if I could earn enough to cover the cost of a student Amazon Prime Video subscription (about 300 yen a month)

With such impure motives, I'm starting this off nice and easy!

Well, I am an adult, though.

(If it's 300 yen, I feel like I can do it! I think it's possible. *If you're from the generation that gets this joke, let's shake hands. My icon is an animal, but I'm a human on the inside, for the record.)

I'll confess. I'm really quite hopeless.

I call myself a 'growth geek,' but the reality is this bad.

• The books I bought with enthusiasm, saying 'Tomorrow for sure!', end up as perfectly good pillows by the next morning.

• I watch capable people from afar and escape reality by thinking, 'Must be nice. Probably just genetics.'

• Trying to wake up early with sheer willpower, only to become a professional napper by the third day

Thinking, 'Man, I really have no guts, do I?'

Honestly, blaming myself had become a hobby

I was nothing but a bundle of inferiority complexes

What saved me was a 'journal' that is (apparently) the greatest in the world

But you know, lately I've finally been able to think, 'Well, that's okay,' about myself

The trigger was

Something written in a scientific journal said to be the greatest in the world (it's called Nature)

It was a story about studying 12,000 people. In it,

'The brain is like muscle training; you can strengthen it even later on'was

casually written there

Just by learning that, kids whose grades were falling apart

changed like magic

'Wait, that's it? It wasn't that I was bad, I just didn't know the 'trick'?'

When I realized that

the tension in my body just seemed to melt away.

What I was missing wasn't 'guts',

but the right 'cheat sheet'.

This note is your 'casual cheat sheet'.

Since then,

it has become my hobby to read through 'academic papers' written by amazing researchers from all over the world.

For me, academic papers are

not difficult studies,

but the 'ultimate cheat sheet' for walking through life a little more easily.

• Why do I always quit after three days?(It was because of my brain's habit of slacking off.)

• What should I do when I don't feel motivated?(It seems all you have to do is change the order.)

Those 'Oh, so that's how it is!' discoveries

following my own curiosity

I will compile them loosely and as I please.

Trying too hard like an overachiever

is exhausting, so I've stopped doing that.

Worrying about 'talent' that I can't control

is over!

Final note: Expectations are a no-go!

I'm still in the middle of my own experiment, 'slowly growing' as I go.

Even now, I still procrastinate like anyone else,

and of course, there are times I feel disappointed in myself.

But,

'Well, I guess I'm just falling into the 'trap' mentioned in that paper,' I think,

and now I'm able to enjoy life like it's a game.

If

you are worrying alone in the middle of the night, thinking, 'I want to change myself, but I just can't move...'

please use my note

as a 'loose cheat sheet' for your life.

Please absolutely do not have any expectations.

Keep it really loose, okay?

Expectations are a no-go! Absolutely not!

Painful theories of guts

are something I've graduated from.

A little bit smarter,

a little bit easier,

why don't we walk along together at a relaxed pace?

I look forward to working with you from here on out!