Realizing 'Parental Love' and 'Gratitude for My Child' Through Parenting

—【A 17-Year Story of Forgiving a Clumsy Mother】—

Thank you so much for all your hard work with childcare and housework every day.

Parenting is precious, but at times it takes away your own time and leaves you feeling overwhelmed.

Do you ever worry, 'Am I really doing this right?'

In this post, I would like to introduce the Kindle book 'What I Learned... Through Parenting,' written by a mother with 17 years of parenting experience about her own journey.

◾️ Resentment toward my mother from childhood

When I was a child, I hated my mother because she prioritized work and I felt she was cold.

・She would arrive at school visits five minutes before they ended and leave without saying a word.
・When she got frustrated, she would hit me, saying, 'Ugh... just looking at you makes me angry!!'
・She never held my hand...
・Her catchphrase was, 'I'm busy, so...'

Even when I had a fever, I was left to sleep alone, and she told me, 'Don't call the office because you're a nuisance.'
I grew up carrying those sad memories...

I do not know what a mother's love is.

Every time my mother spoke harshly to me or hit me,

'I will absolutely never become a parent like this.'
'If I have children, I won't let them be as lonely as I was.'

That is how I spent my time.

Then, when I was 29, I was blessed with my own child.

◾️ Things I only understood after raising a child

As I raised my daughter, a change came over my heart.

"My mother didn't dislike us. She just didn't know how to interact with us..."

"My mother was desperate to raise me..."
She worked so hard... wanting to provide me with a life free of any hardship..."

Realizing my misunderstanding...

I felt sorry for my mother.

"I'm sorry, Mom"... as I whispered that to myself, I couldn't stop the tears.

The moment I realized my mother's past clumsiness...

The long-standing resentment began to melt away little by little.

After a period of being convinced that I "didn't need children"...

Here lies the true trajectory of my heart, from that time until I could sincerely believe that "children are a gift from God."

◾️ There is no right answer to parenting, which is exactly why it is so precious

It is written in warm words about the difficulty of raising a child while respecting them without imposing a parent's feelings, and that there is no single right answer to parenting.

• For those who feel a bit uneasy about their parent-child relationship

• For those who are a little tired of daily parenting

• For those who want to savor the miracle of meeting their child once again

This is a book filled with love and kindness that I would love for such people to read quietly.

“Loving your child in your own way.”

It makes my heart swell to realize that this is more important than anything else.

This book can be read on Kindle.

If you are interested, please check it out.

“I’m sorry, Mom”... whispering that to myself alone... I couldn't stop the tears.

Like I was back then, are you struggling alone with the hardships of parenting or the lingering unease in your relationship with your parents?

You are definitely not alone.

The moment you open this book, I hope a warm light shines into your heart, just as it did for me.

If my 17-year record of tears and smiles can become a charm that gently embraces your heart as you do your best right now, there would be nothing that makes me happier.