Me, Who Stops to Imagine, and Children Who Move by 'I Want to Try'

When children have something they want to do, they want to do it right away, don't they?
I've been thinking lately how envious I am of that.

As for me, even when I have something I want to do, I somehow imagine the result first. Negative images like 'Will it end up like this?' or 'Won't it go wrong?' pop into my head first. Imagination comes before action. This might be the reason why I can't move.

But children don't think about the results; perhaps they can't imagine them yet because they have little experience. I think they move based on 'whether they want to try' rather than 'whether it will go well.' Conversely, I also felt that in order to be able to imagine the results, one first needs a lot of 'experience'.

There was an event one day that made me think about such things.

When I went out with my child, there was an experiential event like treasure hunting where you search for toy gems buried in the sand, and my child really wanted to do it. I looked at those toy gems and said, 'It would be cheaper to buy those gems at a store and you could get more,' and I didn't let them do it.

My child, who was in a bad mood for a while because they couldn't do it, said this in the car on the way home:
'It's not just that I wanted those gems, but the main thing was that I wanted to try digging and finding them.'

Hearing that, I felt bad for judging things only from an adult's perspective.
And I promised, 'Next time there's an event like that, we will definitely do it.'

Experiencing things is, after all, the greatest treasure.

From today's realization, I hope I can become an adult who can move by saying 'I want to try'.