On a night when I repeated the same mistake again | Water droplets do not follow the same path

Hello, this is Yukino.

There are nights when I feel like I have done the same thing all over again.

When someone said something to me, I responded in that same way.
I stayed silent again in that situation.
Even though I was trying to change,
by the time I realized it, I had already fallen into the same pattern.

The voice saying, "I repeated it again," emerges.

A little later,
the voice saying, "Maybe I can't change after all," follows.

On a rainy night in the rainy season, there were water droplets on the windowpane.

It wasn't that the rain from outside had come in,
but the humidity in the room had touched the glass and collected there.

My fingertip touched it, just because.
It was cold.

It was a night where I could feel the weight of the air on the back of my neck.

As I looked at the window, one water droplet moved.

It fell from top to bottom, wobbling slightly.
Following gravity, it traced the line that its shape allowed it to pass through.

The droplet next to it moved after a while, too.
It was a similar trajectory, but a slightly different line.

That water droplet fell in its own shape.
That was all there was to it.

I didn't think to make it go faster or to stop it.
I just watched it fall.

The water droplets did not follow the same line.

Even though I thought it was the same night again.

The fact that "I repeated it again" and
the voice saying "I can't change after all" are,
I think, two different things.

When I was watching the water droplets fall,
I realized that.

A thin line remained where the water droplet had fallen.

The only thing that remained on the glass was the fact that it had passed through here.
remained on the glass.

Even on a night that was the same as before, that line does not disappear.

Even if you do not bloom, you are beautiful.

Yuki no

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