People don't really care that much

You want to be needed by someone.
You want to be thought of as special by someone.

To give you the sad news first,
no matter how much of a person of character you are,
or conversely, even if you are on the path to being a failure,
people don't really care that much.

If they do care, they are more conscious of those who cause them loss or harm than those who provide them with practical benefits.

“I’m not needed by anyone... I’m lonely.”
The one hurting you is always yourself.

When you’ve worked hard at something, when you’ve succeeded,
or when you feel a draft in your heart,
you might want others to see you.

But if you keep holding onto the desire to be seen, you will become exhausted.
Others don’t really care about people that much.

You want to be needed by someone.
You want to be needed by the person you love.

When my mental state drops, I also
feel lost, thinking, “I’m all alone...”
When I look at social media and see someone having fun interacting with others,
I think, “I’m isolated.”

However, when I go to my favorite clothing stores, bookstores, or art museums,
I have the freedom to walk around and look at things at my own pace.
When I’m taking pictures, I’m not disturbed.

Even if you want to be validated by others,
when you are exposed to a lot of fun and a lot of beauty,
being needed by someone is nice, but
realizing that you need yourself,
you rethink that the freedom you have now
is a happiness guaranteed by solitude and isolation.

Wanting to be sought after and favored by others,
prioritizing only my own happiness and pursuing only my own interests,
I laugh at myself, thinking that I won’t be needed for the rest of my life like this.

Wishing for the happiness of others and wanting to be useful for something,
when I look back at how much I have given,
I haven’t done enough to get a return.

Of course, I have poor judgment,
and there are people who left quickly when I failed.

If I were to say this with the intention of taking revenge on them,
“You guys are
the type who seek sweet words and kindness from others
but cannot be considerate yourself.”

If it comes to this, I will master the state of being hated
and live my life causing as much trouble as possible.

From my perspective, even the scum who are thought of as “drop dead” instead of not being needed
are having fun, so looking at them,
I think I have to enjoy my life too.

You want to be needed by someone.
You want to be thought of as special by someone... when you desire this,
it’s usually when your own feelings are at their limit.

If you are needed when you don’t have the capacity,
you will both collapse.

Don’t leave your self-esteem to others.
Even if that is the instinct of a creature that lives in a group.