✏️ By losing, I became able to draw manga. ― Post-Traumatic Growth ―
After I drew "Sunflower Quest 2," I felt a bit curious.
Up until now, even though I wanted to draw, I couldn't at all,
so why did I suddenly become able to draw manga?
And then, at one point,
"Post-Traumatic Growth"
I learned about this concept.
1. Loss expands the "vessel"
In psychology, there is a concept called "Post-Traumatic Growth"
where one grows significantly after losing something precious.
What this means is...
When you lose something, a large "void" is created in your heart, right?
The deeper that void is,
the more it seems you become able to store
greater and deeper "expressions" within it.
As I wrote in a previous note,
I had an experience where someone I thought was my best friend for 25 years suddenly reset our relationship.
The article I wrote about that time
⬇️
Naturally, it was painful and sad, and I dragged it out for several years, but
looking back, for some reason, that was when I became able to draw manga.
If the groove in my heart that was carved out by that sudden, incomprehensible, painful parting
has now turned into a "vessel for storing manga expressions"...
I feel a bit saved, thinking that perhaps there was meaning in losing as well.
2. Creation as "Reparation"
In the world of psychoanalysis,
the "impulse to try to repair a broken world through creation" is called "reparation."
The time lost, the relationship that broke,
—the self I couldn't protect.
By redrawing them in my manga and giving them form, perhaps I am reconstructing my own inner world.
Yes... perhaps I am trying to save myself by "becoming able to draw manga."
3. "Purification" through "loss"
When people have a lot of things, they inevitably go into "defensive mode," don't they?
But when you lose something and become unburdened (or lonely), your expression seems to become "purified" all at once.
I lost my best friend and accepted the loss of "loneliness."
But perhaps, because of that, one could say that my expression has become free of impurities.
I draw manga using "stained glass" made by picking up the fragments of what I have lost.
Not just bright, but a little complex, so that it can cast beautiful colors...
And from now on, so that I don't lose the expression of manga that I finally obtained,
I think I will draw little by little, in a relaxed way.
P.S.
I made an image poster for the manga I'm drawing, [Himawari Quest]❣️
⬇️ If you haven't seen it yet, check it out here❣️
Writing a somewhat serious text and then... it's a gag manga!?
...is the kind of feeling it has😅
Please enjoy it if you'd like~❣️
Himanamaru