Daily Scenes, Notes of the Heart #19

Until recently, there was a version of me that lacked self-confidence.
It was only until just recently.

Confidence.
To build confidence, I started working on three things this past August.
First, looking people in the eye when speaking.
Second, speaking clearly.
Third, walking with my head held high.

To truly face others.
To become someone who can look at people.
Changing myself. I decided to keep changing, and I started moving.
And, I declared to others, "I am going to change this."

When I first started, I received painful feedback like, "You're not doing it yet."
Even so, I didn't run away; I kept facing it.
Now, I realize that I have become a different person from who I was that August.

No matter how difficult things get, I keep walking forward.
While doing so, I noticed that the time I spend feeling down has become shorter.

A while ago, I started working on "valuing my words,"
and recently, I have also started focusing on "valuing the people close to me."

Facing myself, envisioning the person I want to be,
and then declaring that I will "change."
I continue to work steadily toward that declaration.
When I do that, before I know it, I find that I have already changed.

The version of me that I thought couldn't change, that wouldn't change,
I realize that they are no longer there.