I Will Keep Writing Myself

An alarm is ringing.

I have always prioritized exposing my true self, just as I did with my past websites, and I intend to do the same here on note.

I will write articles with the values I hold as they are,
with the words that bubble up just as they are,
and I will write them.

That is the unadulterated me, and it is that version of myself that I want to see here.

Unvarnished words sometimes pierce someone's heart deeply.
For better or for worse.
They can move hearts, and they can also cause pain.
I want to express words that include both the good and the bad.

Decorated words, carefully chosen words, and considerate words quickly become stale, resulting in something that someone somewhere has already written.
If that is the case, it no longer needs to be me.

However, by the way.
I feel that there are so many different kinds of people on note these days.
It goes without saying, but the number of people I meet on the internet is overwhelmingly greater than in reality.
Therefore, naturally, the values I encounter are just as diverse.
Moreover, through AI algorithms, people with values that seem to suit me are being introduced one after another.

And, in fact, they do suit me.
Ah, they have good thoughts.
Ah, they must have gone through hardships.
Ah, those are beautiful words.
When I think like that, before I know it, I am sending comments and following them.

Furthermore, there are various projects scattered around note.
Starting with short-short story projects, there are so many 'sparks' scattered about that drive me to write.
And when I read the articles of others who are participating in those projects, they are also interesting, and before I know it, I am sending comments and following them.

While doing all this,
I find myself starting to feel a connection with others within note.
On top of that, I find myself receiving that with a sense of joy.

Here, an alarm rings.

I know the state I will fall into next.
It is when I am writing something, I start to worry,
'If I write it this way, maybe person XX will be hurt,'
'This content will directly deny person YY's values,'
and I start choosing my words.

And as I wrote at the beginning, someday I will realize,
'My note is written by me, but it is no longer me. If so, there is no need for me to write,'
and I will disappear.

However, the current me hates that. At least, for now.

That is why I must keep my heart from wavering.
Even if more joyful connections are made from here on out, that is that, and I will continue to be myself.

Even if it ends up hurting someone.
Even if those joyful connections are severed.
I will continue to write here with my own words and my own values.

And someday, I will reach someone who can only be saved by my words.

I perceive that as the meaning of my existence.

☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️

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The fact that someone who needs me is waiting here is what brings me back to note tomorrow.

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