283. The Existence of the "Cycle of Love" (HWM45)

Happy Writing Marathon #45

Q. "If you could describe money in one word, what would it be?"

A. It is the existence of a "cycle of love."

~How I went from thinking money was something scary to being able to call it a 'cycle of love'~

"What will I do if I run out of money?"

Don't you have that kind of anxiety
somewhere in your heart all the time?

・The fear of not having enough
・The anxiety of potentially losing it
・The loneliness of having no one to rely on

I, too,
have had times when I felt money was something "scary."

When I started working as a civil servant,

I became independent from the parents who raised me,
and in order to prepare for starting a new life,
"an existence that gives me freedom"it was.


After I got married and had children,

living in a traditional house over 100 years old,
eating out occasionally,
and going to Disneyland once every five years.

Money became
something that fulfills my family's dreams and memories,
"an existence that gives shape to happiness"it became.

After my divorce,

even as a single mother,
I paid for the cram school my daughter wanted,
and her enrollment in a private high school where she could pursue her interests.

Money changed into

"an existence that supports"my daughter's future.

Then, after I became independent

and started my home salon, one year later,
the COVID-19 pandemic hit.

With income cut off while staying at home,
monthly payments were like walking a tightrope.

My circumstances were not taken into account,

and if I wanted help,
I would have to give up my traditional house and my car.

I was in the midst of intense fear that my precious emotional sanctuary might be taken away.
When I couldn't do anything else,

and I told my children and parents,

"I need your help,"
money became


"an existence that sustains my life today"it became.At that moment, I realized.


Money is not

"just numbers"

or "something to increase," but
it is an existence that changes its role into the form I need at that time.


Freedom


,dreams
,support
,life
andthen,it is something that leads to peace of mind.

Now, after remarrying, I
do not focus on "how to increase" money,



but rather value "how to circulate it."

Who am I using it for?
What kind of feelings am I putting into it when I pass it on?

Money used in that way
will go around and around,

and return in a gentle form.
If you are currently
・Someone who has anxiety about money



・Someone who hesitates to receive it

・Someone who keeps things to themselves
I want to reach out to those people.
If I were to describe money in one word for me,





"a cycle of love"

it is.The true nature of moneychanges depending on how you give it meaning.

And that meaning
will create your future reality.

Thank you for reading until the end.
"I want to gently organize my relationship with money"

If you feel that way,

during my 100-person listening challenge,
please, let me hear your story.

Anything, no matter how trivial, is fine.
I would be happy if we could find

the meaning of money and the joy of living for you

together.