Happy Writing Marathon #53 | "If you were to give yourself a reward right now, what would it be?"
The reward I would give myself right now is
a 'time to not try so hard' 😆
I haven't been tested, but
I think I have ADHD 😁
Forgetful, terrible at memorizing, clumsy, unable to do things perfectly, extremely uncoordinated, terrible at drawing, terrible with computers, constantly fidgeting, working while talking, easily bored, unable to listen to long conversations, hate studying...
A person like this
worked as a science teacher for 20 years, as if guided by a great force 😅
It's scary, isn't it? (lol)
Fortunately, although I burned myself many times... I managed to avoid any major incidents or accidents 😅
Honestly, it was tough, and there were many times when it was hard to live 😢
Even so, because it was my job,
I feel like I somehow forced myself to do my best 😁
Therefore,
what I want is time where I don't have to try so hard ☺️
I retired from teaching in April 😆
I was really happy to have time where I didn't have to try so hard, but
my wife, who recently had kinesiology,
keeps telling me,
'You need to try harder' 😅
Living abroad in an unfamiliar developing country, raising children, doing housework, supporting my unstable children and wife... I'm doing enough, yet she says that 😥
While feeling frustrated and uneasy,
this phrase stuck with me strangely,
and when I thought about what I should try hard at...
Flash 🌟
I had an epiphany 💡
'I'll try hard at not trying hard!' 🤪
Not being chased by time, not rushing, not pushing myself, prioritizing what feels good to me, focusing on intuition, taking naps, relaxing my body and mind, making time to do nothing, etc...
I'm going to fill my time with not trying so hard 🤭
Furthermore, since I'm worried about the safety outside,
when I was walking in a safe nearby shopping mall,
a spacey-sounding song started playing...
Flash 🌟
I had an epiphany 💡
The lyrics about not having to try so hard
fit perfectly with the spacey melody 🎵
Even if you're told to try hard
You don't have to try hard
Even if you're not told you're doing a good job
You're doing enough, in places unseen
▶︎ Chorus lyrics
I am currently producing a new song called 'You Don't Have to Try Hard' 😄
During the last four years of my teaching career,
honestly, things went better when I didn't try so hard ☺️
When you try too hard, it puts a strain on you,
you can't perform at your natural best,
your vibration drops,
and I feel like you can't emit good energy 😓
I feel like I end up forcing others to try hard too,
which lowers the vibration of those around me as well 😔
The message of "try hard"
from kinesiology,
is that your mission is to share the idea of not trying so hard!?
I feel now that perhaps it was telling me
to work hard at doing that 😊
*I have launched the edugen channel. I decided to share ways of thinking and living where things somehow work out mysteriously even without trying hard 😆
Recently, the number of subscribers has increased,
reaching seven! ✨ Thank you so much 😭
I will continue to upload more videos,
so please subscribe to the channel 🙇
The thumbnail image is the sky of this country ♪
It is currently the rainy season, but it is almost always sunny in the morning ☀️
The breeze is pleasant, and it feels truly wonderful 🤗