[Genmai no Manma.] Alone by the river, lost in thought.

I just can't seem to shake this fatigue.

Whether I'm asleep or awake, my head and eyes feel heavy.




I'm Genmai, and I want to lighten the hearts of those who read my work, but
my own heart has been feeling heavy...
This is not good.

That's what I felt.


I said one thing to Komeyome (my wife),
"I'm going to go make some space for myself," and headed out.


Looking for a place where I could just zone out,
I went for a drive by myself.




Where I ended up was,
a river.


Fortunately, there was almost no one there.


I made a decision.


Right here, right now,
I'm going to just zone out.




The sound of the river flowing, what should I call it?
It's like it washes your heart clean,
like it's stroking your head,
it has that kind of gentleness.


Thoughts are noisy.

The unpleasant words and events are the loudest.


So I imagined dissolving them into the river's flow and letting it take them away.

Just flow away, bye-bye, I thought.




The color of the green, the sound of the birds, the sound of the river.

If perfect love exists, it must be something we learn from nature.

That's what I thought.

No matter who I am, it allows me to be here without any conditions.




By the time a warm, gentle feeling welled up inside me,
my body felt much lighter, too.

It's a strange thing.




Once my heart felt lighter, look, I'm able to write this now. Haha.
I naturally felt like I wanted to write.


This is Genmai magic.
No, it's nature's magic, isn't it? 😅




If you're feeling down right now, if you're carrying a heavy heart,
why not say, "I'm going to go make some space for myself," and
head out somewhere? ☺️


Immerse yourself in being an idler in the midst of nature.


Tell me what happened when you tried being lost in thought, enough to make a picture,
and how you felt. ☺️




May your heart feel lighter.